My Head When I Dream

I Remember I Held Soft Hands

I was fed up with my job. I don't remember what it actually was, but I worked in an office. I burst out of the building, my boss or some random coworker who cared chasing after me.

I stomped all the way to a busy train station, turned and looked straight at this random guy while I was pacing and asked him, "You wanna go on a trip?"

He responded, "Sure."

I continued to stomp angrily and turned to make sure he followed, but I didn't see him. I turned around frantically and then noticed he was walking ahead of me. I quickly caught up to him.

Then I heard shouting and saw some of the office people; they were pursuing me.

I needed to get away.

Somehow skates ended up on my feet and so the guy let me grab hold of him as he pulled me along while he ran. We got onto a train and then it fast forwarded to us in a sort of rooftop, but maybe more like the top floor of a tall building.

There were vines on the walls and ceiling and the walls were painted and textured to look like tree trunks in a rainforest. We just kind of stayed there for a bit in a sort of silence. I started to feel a bit uncomfortable and I think the guy took notice.

He started randomly talking now, saying things along the lines of, "There's a difference between physical and emotional (something like that). Even if you don't like the person, you can create a mood."

He started walking closer to me and I backed up until I had my back to a corner, shoulders squished by the intersecting walls. He put his hands on the walls, trapping me, as he leaned down slowly to my face. Of course, him leaning in made me think he was going to kiss me, so I shrunk down when he was a breath away from reaching my lips, though I really did want to kiss him. He stopped and then chuckled, stepping back and walking away.

As if testing his theory of "creating a mood", I went after him, reached my hand out and grabbed his, intertwining our fingers. I remember so vividly the softness of the touch of his hand. A smile spread across his lips, I noticed.

This is the part that made me think we were on a rooftop: it started raining, and I let go of his hand to run out from underneath the partial covering to start dancing in the rain. He just stood, amused, while watching me. Then I saw a woman come up from the staircase and approached us both. I went underneath to just chat with her then.

There was a huge ruckus that followed. One by one and two by two, people came up from the stairs, dressed in cosplay. I remember distinctly that Andrew came up in a serious Trafalgar Law cosplay; it didn't look like him, but his aura and personality were obviously him. Then I saw Jabari come in a sort of fat suit or just maybe a polar bear costume, and he was dressed as Trafalgar too but more comedic. They surrounded me and started hugging me.

Afterwards, it switched to a new day. It turns out that that guy for some reason wasn't able to go back home, so I invited him to stay at my place. It was like a time lapse of us encountering each other for a few days. It even might have been like a week. We were treating him well.

But then he left. There are scenes upon scenes of him having filled a room for himself, like it became his home. Then he disappeared with everything. My mom got really angry and was starting to say really bad things about him, but I didn't think of him like that at all.

So I left to go meet up with him, but my mom tried to stop me. I stepped out the door anyways, but I told her I wasn't going over to find him. She somehow believed me.

Then there was a moment where the neighbor in front of us was on the roof, and in this dream I could fly so I was flying, so I met her atop the roof and she told me to take these chocolate covered biscuit things to my mom. I took one and ate it and told her I couldn't. Then my mom shouted out, asking me what I was doing. I let the neighbor answer as I flew away.

I went and looked for awhile. It seemed like days. Then I ended up in a really extravagant mall and I think I saw something I didn't want to see that involved the guy, but I don't remember what that was either. He caught sight of me as I bolted away and he chased after me. I made a mess as I tried to get away, and I ran fast.

I ran in to this one Costco-like store and hid behind one of the tall... whatever it's called that holds the products and literally disappeared behind the wall.

Somehow my perspective changed, like I became another character and began to watch what unfolded. The guy knew exactly where I was and just pushed on the wall like it was a horizontal revolving door.

That character that I once was was hiding, and it was so dark that you almost didn't spot her. But then he got a closer look and pulled her out gently. They made up all sweetly but I don't recall details.

Back as that character again, I had parted ways with the guy.

We met again at a sort of theater but everyone was dressed really nicely and formally, and of course so was I and the guy, who showed up after me. He told me to take a seat right at the front of this balcony seating, which apparently was really good seating for the show. All I remember from the show was that it was almost like a virtual whale, an orca actually, jumping up from the floor like out of water and then diving right back down where he and I sat and the dream ended.

The way he and I interacted just screamed romance and relationship and it was just so weird. The softness of his hands really stuck to me and it's been almost bothering me all day. You know how dreams are actually just your brain organizing and processing your thoughts and memories? Well now you know if you didn't, but anyways if that's so, then I want to know whose hands I held on to.

Also, another detail that I wanted to surprise you with: the guy seemed like a human Nick Wilde and I strangely felt like a human Judy Hopps, but not her personality, more just like her appearance. The whole setting, too, was based on Zootopia. Like the train and when Judy first arrived in the big city. Then also that rainforest rooftop/floor was that jungle part of the city. The random woman that first met up with the guy and I on that floor was like the antagonist secretary person. My mom almost seemed like a combo of Judy's parents.