Good bye, Amber

Chapter 6: Past is PAST

Two songs are picked by each band. The songs that my bandmates picked are:

Oo -Up Dharma Down
Hiling -Silent Sanctuary

And incase of encore:

Nobela -Join the Club

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Friday, 8:01 A.M.

While we (our band) were walking to our respective classrooms, Kyle told me, "Nix, its Friday. Alam mo naman diba kung sino yung classmate mo?"

"Wala naman akong magagawa eh" I murmured.

Mawi replied while gazing the ceiling with his hands, "Ganito lang ang trick jan, wag kang mgpapa-apekto sa mga sinasabi nila, okay?"

"I'll try"

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When I reached my classroom, I immediately searched for a seat that is full of people so that I won't get noticed if I'm alone. But the only vacant seats are 2 at the back part of the room and 1 at the front part of the room. So I picked the one at the front.

While I walked to the seat in front, someone told me, "Brad, may nakaupo na jan" So I said, "Ay sorry. Sa likod nalang ako uupo." with a smile. Then as I sit down, I remembered Amber. She was my classmate today so I tried finding her. Then I saw a girl with a black shirt, and her hair is like Amber's. So I thinked it was her. But I remembered she doesn't wear shorts.

While I was thinking if its truly her, someone took the vacant seat beside me. And guess who it is? Its Amber... AMBER?! With her brown, wavey hair, eyes like sunset, black and green jacket, oreo sweat pants, and purple, high-cut converse (its her favorite color by the way). Then I began to feel cold, dead cold. My body couldn't move, my eyes couldn't blink, and I couldn't breathe. I was dead.

I could say that in my reaction, I still haven't move on.  And I accept it because I really loved her...

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Math class, 8:36 A.M.

While I was getting my graphing notebook in my bag, I then remembered our memories...

Math is her hatest subject and I was the one who teaches her and encourages her when she really gives up on the subject. In exchange, she teaches me Social Studies because it's my hatest subject and she is one of the best in Social Studies in our school.

Anyways, as the teacher started discussing, I wasn't expecting this, but she talked to me... After all the pain that she gave me, she still had the guts to talk to me.

She said, "Hey, long time no talk... How are you?"

Grabe naman, its been 2 weeks since we broke up then "how are you" nalang? Tsk.

"H-hi, oo nga eh... Haha... I'm o-okay naman, still trying to move on. How about you? "

"Oww, yah... Sorry. Medjo mali yung natanong ko sayo... Anyway, I'm okay din. By the way, nakita mo na ba si Gio? She replied

Gio Raymond L. Pascual, Lead Guitarist/Singer of the band "The All New Chapter". Our number 1 rival in every band battle. He's really known because of his looks and talent. Anyways, I really don't know him much. Maybe some of my bandmates, but I tend to forget things. Even if it's an important person.

"Yah... I saw him." I said quietly and evading what she said about her "Gio".

He's so sweet. Actually, he immediately gave me a teddy bear that is human size." she said.

Yan tayo eh, papamukha mo pa sakin na di ako katulad nung lalaki mo. Di ako nagbigay ng teddy bear. Binigay ko lang ay roses...

After what she said, there was an awkward silence that made our conversation end.

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Again, she talked to me and said, "By the way, kasama ba kayo sa Battle of the Bands?"

I responded with a nod, which made me look mad.

She then said, "Ahh, I remembered it was your dream, to compete in our school. Well here it is."

"Yah, and I remembered that you said that you'll be there for me and cheer me when it happens. Also, you said that you'ld be my greatest fan...." I said in a sarcasticly and emotionally way.

At this moment, I could say that after what I said was the most awkward silence ever in my life.

About 3 minutes after, she spoke. And you know what she said?

"Eh, I'll just leave those words from the past. As they say, "Past is past."

Maybe we have the same reaction: Wow... Just wow.

I didn't want to talk to her because it will make me emotional and more likely, cry. So I just nodded and smiled at her with a teary eye to end the awkward conversation.

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(Bell rings)

I immediately ran out the classroom and went beside a tree. Then there, I just cried because she completly moved on and here I am, still trying to.

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After 10 minutes of crying, I began to stand up and went to my classroom. While I was walking up the stairs to the third floor where my room is, Cresley found me and looked at me in the eyes. When she saw my eyes, she said, "Sabi na nga ba eh. Friday. Araw na magclassmate kayo ni Amber. Taha na Nixon. Sa simula lang talaga yan."

I began to be emotional again and said, "Ang sakit lang kasi na parang ang bilis niya makamove on, tas ako dito namamatay na sa sakit ng pag-iwan niya sakin... Yung 1 year na pagsasama namin parang 1 day lang sakanya."

"Tama na Nixon, 1 linggo nalang. Kaya mo yan. Okay?" She said as she punched my right arm.

"Sana kayanin..." I said as I sniffed my nose with a blue patterned hanky.

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Lunch, 12:37

We were dismissed late because our teacher got mad at us. Anyway, as I went my way to the cafeteria, I saw my bandmates waiting for me. When I approached the table where they are sitting, they ALL looked at my eyes. Then Mawi said, "OKAY! BENTE FROM KYLE AND KURT HAHAHAHAHA!" Ay pinagpustahan pa ako.

Then Kyle said, "Sige, paanalo ka ngayon."

"Nix, okay lang yan. Sa simula talaga mahihirapan ka. Pero kapag nagtagal at mag Battle of the Bands na, makakamove on ka rin. Eto nalang baby oh. Say 'AHH'." Toby, while shoving a biscuit towards my face.