24 HOUR BUS. (Luke Hemmings 5sos) AU

Hour 18

Each hour was beginning to feel longer and longer. I was a mess. It felt as though the whole of my short and eventful nineteen year had been spent on this bus.
This bus was hell.
My life back home was hell.
There were differences but if felt as though I was there again. Trapped either way.

"What time is it?" Luke whispered. He had been rubbing my back until my crying subsided.

"Just after 10am" I sighed. It had been so long yet it was only 18 hours. Not even a whole day. I felt selfish for sobbing so much. I felt selfish for only concentrating on myself when everyone else was going through the same thing. Luke could be feeling just as bad as me, or even worse having to put up with me. I feel bad for him. "I'm sorry for crying so much."

"Don't say that!" Luke frowned at me. "You have the right to be crying. We all do so don't be sorry for something so human. Even I'm trying to hold it together." His voice cracked. Guilt ripped through me, I had been acting like it was all about me yet Luke was in pain too.

"Your not hurt physically are you?" I asked Him. I felt the need to add physically since it was clear we were all hurting emotionally.
He shook his head.

"Not really. Just exhausted. Hungry." He rose his eyebrows and nodded at the last bit.
SHIT!
I have food in my bag from work!

"Here." I grabbed my bag ripping it open quietly that no one else noticed. I didn't have enough food for everyone so I didn't want to let on I had any, God knows what would happen. I found the banana peeling it open still in my bag. I broke it in half and handed some to Luke slyly "shhh."
His eyes lit up as the piece of fruit fell into his hands. I hadn't realised how hungry I was until I tasted the rich flavour as it raped my taste buds. I've never been so great-full for a banana in my life!

"Fuck." Luke moaned savouring each bite. The sound rung throught my ears. It had been so long since I heard a sound like that. His neck muscles moved as he swallowed the food. It was an elegant movement, angelic. Mesmerising." Thank you."
He snapped me out of my thoughts. I'm going crazy in here. Imagining things and getting carried away. I would never think the way I am if I weren't in here. I needed to get my head together.
I nodded and pulled out a bottle of water taking two huge gulps. My dessert like mouth was graced by the river running through it and down my neck. I handed it to Luke and he did the same.

Everything was still getting to me. The driver was still controlling me even though I had no sight on him and as far as I knew he couldn't see me. Yet I was still following every word he said to a T. I wanted to tell Luke everything he said earlier but he warned me off. I was terrified of disobeying and disappointing him even though he had no right. He had nothing to do with me apart from decide if I live for die in the next 5 hours. Big part of my life I know but I was still me. I didn't feel like me though. I felt like a football being tossed between posts of different people and different opinions and destinations for me.

Right now the only destination I saw for myself was death. He was coming for me and I had no guts to take my life back!