Chapter 6

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by Mpregbaby

by Mpregbaby

4 weeks later

Paul's pov

It was quiet,everything is quiet.I rubbed my bump."I think we should have aborted"Danny confessed."You told me you loved our baby"I said mad at him.We have been fighting for a couple hours.All the boys were ease dropping."No-make that my baby"I said.

"Paul"He raised his voice."I thought it was better to protect him from what's to come,and that's pain,pain,more pain and surgery,surgery,and more surgery,Do you really want that for our son?"Danny asked."No!I don't,but if I had a choice of letting him live with this disability or to kill him,I would choose to let him live"I said.

"With a disability,who would want that?"Danny asked."He's our son!"I raised my voice."I know that!You keep saying that and I know that,but he's sick and in pain,I wish you just ended his suffering!"Danny yelled at me.

"I couldn't do that!"I said."Yeah because your selfish!"Danny yelled at me."I couldn't do that because I love my baby too much to do that!"I yelled."No,if you truly loved him you would end his suffering!"Danny yelled.

"Stay away from me!"I yelled."I'm scared that you'll kill our kid because you are to coward to face what's coming!"I yelled."No! I'm not the coward you are!"I got some false contractions."You promised to be strong enough for two of us,I should have known that it was just one your lies!"I got another contraction.Alex (From target) intervened."That's enough,both of you!"He yelled.

"Paul are you okay?"I took a deep breath."Never better"I lied."No you aren't"Alex pulled me aside.Dylan was talking to Danny and Luke and Alex were with me."You're having contractions aren't you?"I nodded.

"They aren't bad,false labor it's nothing,it goes away on it's own"Alex looked at me."Not when you're having fights and are stressing not only yourself out,but your baby"Alex placed his hand on my bump."Is he right?"I asked the boys."To yell at you,no"Luke said as we got some chairs and sat down.

"To tell you what he wanted,well he's a little late for that"Alex said."Should I have aborted the baby?He's right in that way,I can't argue with him about it"I confessed."He's your son and I know that you would want to give him the best chance at a life he could possibly have,and he can't have it if he's dead"I nodded softly.

"He kicks and that means he's alive,so why should I kill somene that's alive and who can be okay with medical care"I said."He kicks in my belly and I love him so much"I said."Danny doesn't get the bond I have with him,it's unfair that he's sick!"I said.

"I wish I could tell you I understand too,but I don't"Alex confessed."Yeah well your not carrying a little person in you"I said."Feel this"I took Alex and Luke's hand.He kicked gently and they felt it."He uses his foot or butt alot"I said.

Danny came over to me."I'm sorry"He said."Don't be,I'm sorry too"I said."You should have told me sooner"I said."Paul that's not why I was upset.I talked to parents of children with Osteogenesis Imperfecta and I saw how the kids were in wheel chairs and walkers and they sent me pictures on my phone of their babies in casts a few hours after they were born.I'm scared now,he's in pain and I don't want see him like that"Danny was really scared.

"I know"I said."I go to a support group to,for moms...and me"I smirked.The boys left us alone."They said during the X-rays we can hold him while they put him under"I said."The put him under?"Danny asked."Yeah because he'll move to much"I said.

"And depending how severe his breathing problems are,he might need breathing treatments at a hospital weekly"I told him."I knew about that,just not that they were putting him under"Danny said."Yeah because he's too young to understand not to move during an X-ray"I said."He'll need alot of X-rays"Danny said.

"How can we be so helpless?"Danny questioned."I know,I know I'm supposed to trust the doctors because they are the only ones who can help him,but I can't,I'm his father/mother figure,I'm the one who supposed to care for him,he's supposed to rely on me and instead he's relying on the doctors and I hate that"I said.

"How did our lives become so complicated?"Danny asked."I'm a hyper teenage kid and your carrying my kid,why didn't we think of condoms?"Danny asked."Well we did use one,it just broke"I pouted.

I played with my hair,like always."I love the baby don't get me wrong,but if I had a time machine,I would use it to stop us from having sex...and to meet Nirvana"Danny said and I chuckled.

"For the nursery I think we should make it punk rock!"Danny said and I giggled."I want the baby to stay in my room"I said."And you can stay with us-Oh who am I kidding you already stay with us"I said.Danny chuckled.

"I do"Danny said."Are we ever going to be ourselves again?"I asked."I don't know"Danny said."Probably not"I said."I'm going to teach our son all about punk rock!"Danny said."Every time he's in the hospital,we are going to make him have the best time of his life"Danny said.

I tear slipped down my cheek."Dr.Herman said he'll have a normal lifespan,but 90% of it will be in a hospital"I said.Danny took out his wallet."I keep a picture in here,if I'm bored,if I need some encouragement,if I'm scared,anything,I look at it.Our son's a fighter and we can't be fighting because that's going to make us end up with nothing"Danny said and I nodded.

"Let's fight for him"Danny promised me."Promise me something"I said."Depends what is,I don't make promises I can't keep"Danny said."The second he's born,promise you won't leave his side"I said."In surgery be a few feet from the operating room"I said.

"I won't leave his side,never,I won't leave his side"Danny said."And instead of being with me be with him in the NICU,hold his hand"I said as we started walking to the boys.They ordered pizza."Okay now I want to put ice cream and pickles ont he pizza"Danny laughed."I'm a crazy fat pregnant person"Danny smiled."Your not fat!"He said."Pregnant,but not fat"Danny explained.I started poking the top of my bump getting light kicks in response.

"What?"Danny furrowed his eye brows and I put his hand on the top of my bump."He's using his foot"Danny said."His using his toes"My smiled turned into a frown."His feet,what if he hurt his feet?"I asked worrying.

Danny looked down."Don't worry,everything will turn out for the best"Danny lied."Your lying"I said getting a slice of pizza while looking for pickles."Ah"I put pickles on it.All their faces went blank."If we had ice cream this would be a 100 times better!"I said.Sam handed me a pint of vanilla ice cream"I smiled."Yes!"I said putting it on the pizza.

"Gross"They cringed."What?You guys really should try it!"I said.Taylor got the ice cream and and pickles and started eating it.They looked at him."The ice cream makes it worse"He said getting a plain slice and putting pickles on it.

He ate it."Much better with just pickles"He said and I started laughing."What?The baby likes it"I pouted eating my pizza.

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