"Hold my hand" ~ Taekook ♥

Flesh.

    "Because getting a physiologist only conforms that you are not okay."

 -departedlovers

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{Nightmare~Jungkook}

Turning around and around I saw nothing but darkness, afraid, I stood there in place until I heard a voice.. crying....Turning around once more to only face a mirror. Showing me nothing but more darkness and only emitting those sad screams from an unknown boy I couldn't make out. "Wait!! Not yet I'm not ready, please I beg of you have mercy upon my soul. You are a part of me but not yet. I am not strong enough to hear what you have to say please. . . please STAY AWAY! GO AWAY! HIDE WITHIN MY BONES AND PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE. I can't do this alone... please . . . anyone?.......anyone...." I couldn't move, as much as I wanted to but I simply could not budge out of my spot in front of the circular long mirror. Showing me nothing. He sobbed while screaming and my heart ached with every syllable that emitted out of his fragile mouth. I recognized the voice but I just couldn't place the voice to a specific person. I leaned in more towards the mirror noticing a white blur laying down in the middle of the darkness, slowly the blur faded and I was able to recognize a body.... I know that body... wait... is that... Taehyung?

{Nightmare ~Taehyung}

I ran and ran, running seemed like the only thing I was capable of. I knew what I was running from, day and night, asleep or awake I ran away from the truth. . .. from the darkness that screamed the awful truth, like daggers painfully slowly dancing around my skin.  I wasn't denying the dark part of me but I was not strong enough to face it. I didn't want to be weak and alone while facing my darkness because I was afraid of who I would become after, so I pushed it far away from me. I denied it, denied the damaged part of me. My sobs become quieter and quieter as I ran because I knew even if I screamed no one would hear me. "please ... please not yet, I don't want to do this alone. MOM. . .DAD . . . JIMINIIIEEEE.. .. .. . JUN. . .  . JUNGKOOK? Anyone, anyone please save me. I'm afraid, I'm scared." I started to chock on the tears I tried but failed to hold back. "I can't do this alone. please. Anyone?" I fell to the cold dark ground and hugged my body as I felt myself being consumed once more. Too weak to run anymore I let myself disappear. 

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I woke up shaking with fear running throughout my sweaty body and barely breathing properly. What the bloody hell was that? I reached out for my clock that sat on my nightstand reading only 1:30 in the morning. Aishh I have only been asleep for 2 hours, why would I have a nightmare this early plus, I haven't had them in such a long time. I got out of my bed while chucking down the water bottle I always keep near my bed. While changing my now sweaty clothes into a new set of clean sleepwear, I couldn't stop replaying the last scene in my nightmare over and over again. Taehyung.

Even when I tried to shake the uneasy feeling away, my heart panged in fear for him. A billion questions running through my mind and a million emotions turning and swirling in my chest. One day, that's all it took for me to get attached to that silly cute boy. But I wasn't complaining, I was more than glad to get attached to Taehyung, there is something comforting about him. Contrary to his physical looks sometimes, he looks as fragile as glass, so in need of love and warmth. So closed yet so ready to be opened, to be set. . . .free. Almost like he has been deprived from the feeling of release . I sat on the edge of my bed and reached for my phone, going through my contacts until I realized that sadly I don't have his number. I just wanted to call and check up on him because even though it was just a nightmare, I couldn't help but feel a sense of fear and uncertainty in my chest. It also sucked that I didn't have anyone else'a number to call and have them check up on Taehyung. Maybe...... no drop it jungkook...but it won't do any harm....to you know...just..go check up on him. I know it's around 1:40 but come on, he's a teenager, he has to be awake on the internet or something.

I grabbed my coat and a red beanie and wore them on top of my black sweats and black and white strips shirt, while stuffing my house keys and phone into my pocket. While I slowly passed my siblings room and went down the stairs, I noticed a neon light coming from the living room and low sounds. I accidentally slipped on the last stairs and stumbled; landing on the floor. I looking up and saw my parents turning their heads from their cuddling position on the sofa to me with full confusion, but I swear I saw a hint of fear flash in my dad's eye for a split second. 

"Jungkook what are you doing up so late walking around the house like that...hold it! Why on earth are you wearing your coat." Mrs. Jeon got up and helped Jungkook off the wooden floor.

"I um, just wanted to go out and check up on a friend, he lives a street away from us so I won't be far."

"Young man, you do realize that it's almost 2 in the morning, right?" Mr. Jeon stated from his position on the sofa.

"Yes I know, but I really do have to check up on him, I think something is wrong." Jungkook pouted and made straight eye contact with both his parents. His fear and uneasiness evidently showing through his voice.

"Alright, I suppose you could go check up on him but I have to make myself clear that this will not under no condition become a routine thing young man, understood. No child of mine will wonder around in the middle of the night, it's more dangerous out there than you would think."

Jungkook understood exactly what his father was talking about and it's not like he has ever done this before. "Yes I understand dad, thank you and I promise I will keep you updated."

He ran and hugged his parents before walking and putting his black Adidas sneakers on. "Make sure you apologize to your friend's parents for disturbing them so late at night, alright kiddo!" His mom whisper yelled from the living room making sure not to wake up the rest of the house. Shit, I didn't think about Taehyung's parents. "Yes mom, bye."

     This can either go very bad or very good. Either way, I closed the door behind me and stepped out into the January winter night and started walking down the street before I changed my mind.