"Hold my hand" ~ Taekook ♥

Am.

The more I grow the more I realize that there is not one thing right about me. -departedlovers

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I can't possibly be that hopeless right?

Taehyung painfully dragged his feet out of the Academic Advisors office and closed the door behind him with a soft click.

I wish I could close the truth behind a door this easily. But that would be denying, and I have done that all my life.

"Taehyung~hyung."

I tried you know, I always tried.   

"tae..."

But maybe trying wasn't good enough.

"Taetae..."

I knew I was never really good enough, but .. I .. just never thought that I would be this hopeless. So useless. Am I really this useless.

"Taehyungieeee."

Wow, pathetic.

"WHAT?"

Shit! I turned around to find Jungkook staring at me with a hurt expression plastered on his face. How much did I say out loud?

"Did you just call me pathetic?"

"WHAT NO!"

"Well, you said pathetic."

"No, I didn't."

"Yes, you did!"

"No I didn't Jungkook, you must be hearing things." I painted my smile on my face while I turned around heading back to  homeroom with Jungkook walking beside me now. Its only been an hour and a half since school started and my academic advisor already wanted to talk to me about "my future," again.

"Okay, um well I got out of class to check up on you since you've been out for a long time. Everything okay?"

I faced him yet again with my cheery smile and nodded. "Everything is fine, just wanna head back to class and get caught up with what I missed so far."

"Oh... okay."

It wasn't a long walk back to the classroom considering that the advisers office was just at the opposite end of the hallway. Ughh, if it wasn't for Jungkook I would have ditched homeroom and went to draw and take a breather. I was grateful that he come to check up on me, but with him begin new and already sticking so close to me I don't think I will be able to keep on smiling for so long. You know what I mean. Sometimes I like walking around with my blank face because it's kind of relaxing, I just wish that everyone would stop asking me if something was wrong or if I was okay when they see my blank face. Like come on people, my facial muscles are just tired from smiling all day.

As Jungkook reached out to turn the handle of our classroom door, I took in the biggest breath I could and got ready for the mental agony to begin.

I may be hopeless, pathetic if you must say but it doesn't mean that they have to know. No one has to know the struggles you go through, no one has to know just how damaged you are. 

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.{Jungkook}.

I know I heard him right, I'm sure of it. "Pathetic," the  way he said it sounded so painful. For a split-second, he sounded so broken, so.... hopeless.

Taehyung... are you okay....