It was me, not you

Chapter 6

I smile as I wake up next to Sam. It was the first night we had slept in our new house. There had been some set backs to the interior of the house. I look at him and smile as he lays peacefully and poke him. He wakes up slowly and looks over at me and smiles. 

"I need to go to the studio today." I say quietly trying to get up. I sit up and Sam sees my stomach.

"You've gotten bigger" he says. I look down.

"No. It's still the same I reckon. 6 months in" I reply. He puts his hand on my stomach. I jolt away.

"Are you alright?" he asks concerned. I nod and chuckle to myself.

"Your hands are cold" I reply. He chuckles and kisses my neck.

I take a huge breath and sign "I need to get up" I say and eventually get up. "I need to be there before everyone else. I need to sort of the t-shirts and jackets. They need to be ordered by the end of the week." I say and walk out.

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I get to the studio and not that much later Quinn walks in crying. 

"What's wrong?" I ask as she runs into my arms. Her hair was soaking wet as she had rain through the rain.

"I'm pregnant" she says quietly. I let go and walk to the seats. 

"What do you mean?" I ask sitting down on the two seats beside us. I feel a sharp pain as I go to sit down. One I hadn't felt before it was like a cramp but only worse. "Arhh" I say.

"Are you alright?". I nod my head and let her continue to tell me the problem. "You know the night me and the new boy stayed late to do a solo? Well things went a little bit unexpected. We did it. It was my first time and I really like him. A  couple of weeks later I felt sick and I hadn't had my period. So I took a test two days ago and it was positive. My parents found out and they kicked me out of their house." she says crying. I hug her and comfort her until Naya and Maddie walk in.

"Well you have options. If you want to keep it. You find a job to support that baby or you give it up. And I know a family that would love that baby to pieces. For now you can either live with me- on the couch of my place, and you can have some of mine and my sister's maternity clothes"

"For when I get fat?" she asks.

"No. Your gonna be beautiful."

"Thanks. But I don't need the home. The clothes yes but a house. No. I've told him and he said its fine if I stay with him and his parents. Thank you so much for all you've done. But how? How will I cheer or pay for dance. What if I don't want to have a kid?" she asks. I knew what she meant.

"I know what you mean. I didn't want to be pregnant. It was like another bump. Another thing I didn't want, and even when I wasn't going to keep it. When you see that ultrasound you fall in love" I explain. She smiles and get up.

"Thanks"

"No problem" I reply and try to stand up I feel another cramp, even worse then the other before.

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I sit on the couch designing the t-shirts and sweatpants for the team. I sit with my laptop on my knee and the cramps I was feeling this morning just kept coming.  Sam walks in and kisses my head.

"Hey" he says. I look up and smile.

"Hey. How was work?" I ask him. He sits down next to me and drops his bag on the ground.

"Boring. Except there was a goat that gave birth" he says. I smile and look down at my laptop. "You?" he asks. I look up.

"Quinn's pregnant. She got kicked out of her house"

"That's horrible. Where is she staying?" he asks.

"At the father's house. I told her she could sleep here but she wanted to be with the father and his parents. She doesn't know if she wants to keep it or not. She's not really certain about the whole pregnancy thing"

"Neither were you. She just needs sometime" he says and kisses me. I slightly smile and stand up feeling another cramp.

"I'm gonna have a shower" I say and put my laptop down.

"You alright?" he asks. 

I nod "Yeah, I just want to take a shower" I reply and kiss his head. I don't tell him the real reason- that I was cramping and I didn't know why. I though a shower would help ease it.

"We could have a shower together" he says grabbing my hand and smirking. I smile.

"Maybe later. I just want to have a nice relaxing shower" I say and walk off. 

I stand in the shower washing my hair when I see blood going down the drain. I check to see if I had cut myself when I was shaving but I hadn't. I start to panic. First cramps than bleeding.

"Oh God. Oh God" I say pacing in the shower. I look down again and try to clam down.

"Jordan. Are you ok?" he asks from outside.

"Go away!" I yell and get out of the shower. I try to get all the blood down the drain and try to dry off. 

"Jordan?" he asks curious. I lock the door so he can't come in.  "Jordan? Let me in" he says trying to open the door.

"Go away!" I yell again. 

"Jordan. Let. Me. IN!" he says slowly. I quickly get dressed and unlock the door. He comes rushing in.  "Jordan?" he asks. I sit down on the closed toilet and run my fingers through my hair. 

"I'm ok" I reply looking at him. He crouches down and looks up at me. 

"Your obviously not. You locked me out of the bathroom and told me to go away. You should feel comfortable telling me things. And also your bleeding" he says pointing at my crouch. I look down and tell him to take me to a hospital.

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"You had a miscarriage. I am so sorry for you both. We will perform a operation tomorrow to remove the baby. I am so sorry for your lose" a doctor says. I grip onto Sam's hand and hold on tight. Tears fall down my face and I just sit there depressed and in pain.