better off dead a bvb love story-chapter 1

better off dead a bvb love story-chapter 18

(still ash's pov)

i walked out to my car and heard a police car in the distance

"shit" i muttered and peeled out of there and back home when i got there the blonde girl was just leaving

"oh good your home" she said and tryed to hug me i pushed her away and went to the door and walked in she followed me in "babe whats wrong?" she said sitting down

"omg i dont even know your name!get the fuck out!" i yelled grabbing her arm and marching her out of the house i sighed and put my back to the door and slid down it i don't know why but i started to cry as i thought about how bad my life has gotten....

i got up and went to my room i went to the closet and picked out a clean shirt (black) and black skinnies with my block cowboy boots i walked to the bathroom and turned the shower on i stripped dwon and looked in the mirror my face and eyes were puffy from crying and i looked like death i jumped in once the water got hot and showered i stood in the water for about ten minutes then got out dried and got dressed i brushed my hair out and turned my straightnerr on and waited for it to heat up as i waited i put on very light eyeliner on and straightened my hair teased it and added a crap load of hairspray i was starting to look like my self again i brushed my teeth and put my oots on and walked out to the living room i sat down with a peice of leftover pizza "Thank u jake for leaving ur pizza on my 800 doller couch" i mumbled i sttled over family guy and was starting get into the show when my phone rang i answered "where the hell r u ash?!" andy yelled

"At home" i said eating the last of my pizza

"we go on in 45 min!" he yelled crap i had tottally forgot about the show tonigh

"sorry man lost track of time b there in 5" i said

"yeah got lost doing a chick" i heard someone in the backround i hung up and sprinted out the door keys in hand

*****at the venue*************

i got in and looked around and spotted andy i went straight to him "hey sorry man i ugh had shit to do" i said

"lookd ash i know ur still mad bout this whole cc and alex thing but u really need to get ur shit staright ok?" he said looking a lil annoyed

"im not!" i yelled

"yes u are! u've slept with like 40 chicks in the past week! thats a lot! more than usual...and have u had one morning that u didnt wake up with a killer head ake?" he said

"there happy...."he pleaded when i didn't reply

"it's not fair and u kno it!" i wailed

"yes it is! u hade 3 yeas to say something andu didnt so ya! there happy! just leve them alone! i mean it ash!" andy said

"but i still love her...." i cried out my voice trembling

"ya i now man...im so sorry.." andy said patting my back i breathed in slowlly and calmed down some wat and nodded ae then walked back to every one else...