Flame Rekindled

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"DEZ. PLEASE OPEN THE DOOR! DEZ-" That's all I've been hearing for the past hour. Endless pounding on my bathroom door. I fill the tub up full and sat there for a few. Thinking to myself the trial of events that led me to this moment.

Staring at the steps, I snap. If she is dead... I have no reason to stay here anymore. I don't want to be hear anymore. My love died... My bestfriend is most likely dead. My old Brianna died when she made that deal long ago... Why should I stay here too? 

I climbed the stairs. "Where are you going, Dez?" I didn't answer. I don't have the strength to even explain myself. I never wanted to die before this. I never had these thoughts till now. I am truly left alone. No one understands how weak I have withered down to be. I make it to my room and lock the door behind me. Standing there for a good 10 minutes I finally move beside the tub. 

"DEZIREE SUMO! PLEASE! DON'T DO THIS!!! LET ME HELP YOU THROUGH THIS." She screamed, now throwing herself at the door now to break it down. I felt tears stream down my face... I'm tired of crying so much. I'm tired of tears being my only response. I want to do something... I know what I want...

I climb in the tub with my clothes now soaked from the water swarming around me. I Hold my breath and go under. Feeling the tears being washed away every second I stay. 

One minute. I can hear Bri's cries get louder and louder. I'm sorry. I think to myself. 

Two minutes... Her pounding on the door is slowly stopping, but still marching on. I know this will put her threw more... and I know it will hurt her, but like I said... She is the strongest person I know. She can handle anything.

At three minutes my lungs beg for air. Determined to stay down, I grab the sides of the tub to keep me under. Finally I was forced to take a breath, letting the water invade my lungs. Choking on water I feel all the air leave my body. I close my eyes... and prepare for my demise. Wherever I end up, it's better than suffering here. I lost my friends... My mom doesn't even talk to me much... Noah has moved away to England so he could be with his internet friend Evan. I am... Truly alone at this point. Strangely... I don't even mind as the seconds drag out.

I see a white light start to blind my vision and I smile. I can finally be free from my ties here. I close my eyes and- "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!" I hear a wail that pulls me up from the water. The person turns me over and slams their palms on my back, forcing the water to evacuate my lungs. I cough and sputter. "DON'T YOU EVER TRY SOMETHING LIKE THAT AGAIN. YOU HEAR ME!?" They hold me.. Crying. Their arms around me, forcing to lean back. I open my eyes and I see the door wasn't knocked down. Brianna was still beating on it actually, but not as intense. She suddenly stopped when the voice spoke. "Don't you ever scare me like that again..." It said. 

I look up to see my Angel holding me. Lillian was holding me crying. Was this her Limbo? "L-Lillian..." I coughed. She held me tighter. "Please..." She said quietly. My eyes widened when I finally realized that this wasn't a trick I turned fast and hugged her tight. "I thought you were dead!" I cried. These tears I was sick of, these tears that almost made me kill myself... Was the only thing I knew were real. The one thing that I knew I would forever had, but if this is just some sick cruel joke my mind is playing on me while I am underwater dying... Then I am okay with that. "I thought I was too.. I have been watching your pain the whole time. I wanted to hold you for so long you just never saw me. Before I knew it I am holding you in my arms." She cried as well. I kissed her, again and again. Holding her face, holding her. Something I have been wanting to do for God knows only how long. She is with me at last.

"I will never... ever let anything hurt you... ever again." and I meant it. "I don't care about that." She replies. "Never, under any circumstance... Kill yourself." I smiled at her and kissed her neck. "I won't if you never leave me." She smiles. "Deal."

Brianna finally gets the door open and stares at us. "WHAT THE HELL DEZ!?" She screams. She stops when she sees Lillian right beside me in the tub. I let her up and she gets out of the tub, soaked. Water drizzles out of Brianna's eyes and she semi-tackles Lillian. We gained someone we lost... Now the real question is, is it a dream?