As I sit here surrounded by a small group of not so close friends at a lunch table, I look towards the ceiling. Names etched into the wall in honor of all the school's brightest students. Usually I wouldn't hang out with these losers, but I didn't trust myself to be alone with my thoughts. It all starts as sadness but then turns to this self hatred feeling where I grow guilt about the way I feel, only leading to more problems. "Yo hipster, you okay there?" One of my friends calls out. I blink repeatedly and turn to them, flicking them off casually.
"I would be more nicer to people such as friends." I heard a voice behind me say. That voice that created a deep feeling of annoyance yet warmth. I turn and see the person I least wanted to see, as he carried a cocky smile. I wanted to burn that smile away just like it had been burned into my memory. I didn't even want to say a single word to him, I know it may seem stupid but I'm just a person who runs away from everything. I grabbed my stuff and fled off into the courtyard taking in some air and walking to my next class, considering break would be over in about five minutes.
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I sat in class actually paying attention, and soon enough, the day has ended and I walked towards my locker to put away my textbooks. In the process I dropped my sketchbook and considering I rarely clean it out, an avalanche of scrap papers with doodles came flying out. I cursed at myself for my typical idiotic clumsy-ness and reached to pick them up, but by the time I finished my bus had fled off, leaving me with a bunch of band nerds after school. Angrily, losing patience I didn't have to begin with, I grabbed my bag and began to head bak out, until I heard a voice call me. "Hey Autumn! Where you going?" I turn and see a friend walking towards me. His name is Jason and he's a pretty nice guy, but like most people, not a very close friend. I replied to his question with the obvious answer "home". He insisted on joining me, saying his place was on his way to mine. I shrugged and let him join. He seemed odd today for some reason. He may not be close, but I can tell when something is odd. I turned to him and began my interrogation. He insisted it was nothing but that's clearly bulls***. I left it off at that and continued walking, and before we left school grounds, he grabbed my hand and held it, in a couple-manner. Just as he did that a car that was leaving school slowed down. It felt strange and yet comforting. But to my opinion not okay. I pulled away and looked him straight in the eyes. "Listen, I know you didn't know this...but I am very serious on personal space, what was that?" I said in the most serious tone I could cough up. He turned a soft shade of pink and shrugged, layer on apologizing profoundly. Of course I forgave him, but by the time I said goodbye to him, I realized what a liar I was to myself yet again."Sept 19
I know it isn't good for me to write down stuff at this moment when I'm in a certain state of confusion, but I've realized what a liar I've become. I say I need my space...but when Adair reached for me...I didn't pull away...why?" I wrote down in a slobby handwritting.
Then my inner gates to hell opened and in came rushing memories of a person I used to think I would die for.
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Words of Stone (Teacher X Student)
عاطفيةStory is about Autumn. She doesn't trust anyone, and will do anything to stop her emotions from growing. Until she meets Mr.Adiar. At first she thinks the world is out to get her until he show her a new side of life.