Same Mistakes -Zayn Malik-

Love Me

I got up from the bed. I was sort if scared to walk into Zayn's room. I just stood in that spot. My legs couldn't move. I really couldn't. I was scared. I didn't want to be hurt again by him. That's the thing, if I forgive him I can be hurt, but if I don't I'm not whole. Why does this have to be so complex?

Slowly, I managed to get over to the sink and wash my face. I brushed my hair then looked at myself. I was better, but my eyes were a bit puffy. It didn"t matters, I needed to go to Zayn now.

I opened the door to his room. He was on the ground sitting, still shirtless, and his head buried in his hands. Slowly he life's his head. His hair was a complete mess.

"What the fuck happened to those covers?" I said to him in a monotone voice. There was blood spots everywhere. He lifted up his hands. It was covered in cuts, small ones everywhere.

"Zayn." I said in a soft tone. He plopped his head back in his hands.

"I understand, you don't want me. I've fucked everything up, twice. I'm a shitty person who isn't even close to your type. That girl I kissed, I don't know I just." he looked over to the wall in frustration. "I don't even know. I was drunk as fuck. And that girl -"

"Stop." I said to him. I didn't want to hear anything about that.

"Ok so I won't say anything about that but I'm fucking horrible and if you want to leave me it's ok I understand. But you're my only chance of love. Only one I can love. Everyone else is nothing to me." He said his eyes drifting over to mine. I held back tears. If he loved me then why would he go with another girl. It was a mistake. I know.

"I forgive you Zayn. But this can never happen again. It's over Zayn if one more time. I won't take being hurt again." I said still in the doorway. His eyes lightened. I smiled. I walked over and sat next to him. I put my hand though his hair, trying to put it back to normal. My fingers ran through his silky hair. Once I had finished I looked down at him. His eyes were closed and his mouth curling upwards, his lip piercing being played with his tongue inside his mouth. He was so cute. His head turned to me, his eyes opening. Zayn's brown eyes melted my heart. I cupped his cheek. His defined cheekbones against my hand. I leaned in and kissed him. The kiss became more passionate and he rolled to make my back against the cold marble floor. His tongue traced my upper lip then slowly my bottom one.

"Fuck Zayn." I whispered. The kiss went on. My lips traveled down to his bottom lip. The cold metal I craved hit my lip. I traveled my hand down to Zayn's leg up to his hip. Zayn slowly pulled away.

"I can't." He said quickly getting up.

"Zayn.." I whined.

"We are not having our first time after I cheated on you." he said looking at me sternly.

"God your such a fucking buzz kill." I said in an annoyed tone. He rolled his eyes.

"Class shit." he said and grabbed his bag pack. I ran over to my room and grabbed mine. I met him in the hallway. We went down the stairs and went outside. The temperature was warm. He wrapped his hand around mine. We were walking and then Niall came up.

"Back together I see. Even after he fucked another girl while you were crying?" Niall said in a unapologetic voice.

"I forgave him." I said to Niall a mean look forming.

"Oh well then, the little fuck up actually has someone who stays." He said looking straight at Zayn.

"Niall shut the fuck up." Zayn said through clenched teeth. His grip tightened on my hand.

"Too bad she is just the beginning of a deal." He said. A deal? What?

"You know that had nothing to do with anything. It hasn't even happened so fuck off." his voice deepened.

"What?" I voiced in.

"You never told you're one true love? Awe how sweet. He made a bet with me that he would sleep with you first before me." He said adding a risk at the end. What the hell! I didn't say anything. I didn't want to scream at Zayn in front if everyone.

"Niall I'm warning you I will fucking kill you. That. Bet. Meant. Nothing." Zayn said his teeth never parting.

"Lets go." I said pulling Zayn's hand.

"See if she takes you now!" He yelled.

"IF YOU EVER SAY ANYTHING AGAIN YOUR DEAD! HEAR ME DEAD!" Zayn yelled at Niall putting his finger to his throat. And sliding it across. His arm flexed making his tattoos bulge. I started to walk making Zayn go with me.

As we walked more and more people stared at us. We walked past a group if preppy girls. They all snickered.

"Do you have a problem?" I said in a fake concerned voice. They looked at me then rolled their eyes.

"Oh please, he needs better." One girl said in a screechy high pitched voice.

"I think fucking not." I said and walked again. I was done with people saying stuff about us.

"Do you want me to let go of your hand?" Zayn whispered leaning down to my ear.

"No, I'm not changing who I like for them." I said and smiled at him. He kissed my cheek then we continued to walk.

We walked into the classroom and set our things down. After 2 hours of her bantering on about some stupid frog we got to leave.