Love Letters: 7th through 9th Grade

Love Letter 3

Dear Jeremy,

(Look, I know I've been saying the names in the other letters and adding pictures but this one I can't because, I, I'm scared of what he'll think. Im scared of what he'll say when he reads this. This is eating me up so bad, I just had to get it out. I'm even scared of my best friends reactions because I don't know if it's the right time.)

Over the past what, 4 or 5 years, we've always talked. On the phone, at your house, anyway we possibly could. We've always had that one of a kinda "best friend" relationship that I've always wanted with someone. And I've never regretted talking to you.

I'm so glad that we're still friends even though you're a grade higher than me. I'm so glad that you stick up for me when I'm not around. I'm so glad that we have a special bond we won't have with anyone else. But, I'm sad that you'll probably never see this because you've probably moved on.

When we first talked outside that night, I felt kind of weird because I was telling some of the things I would never tell anyone else, to you. But over time, I felt, safe, knowing you would keep them away from everyone else. I was glad that we could talk and give advice to each other without judging. How we would laugh at the stupid things and sometimes, even cry at the sad things. I don't think I've ever seen you cry, but you've told me some sad stuff that I cried for you about.

And, I've started to grow closer and closer to that one word me and my best friends despise, "Love". I don't really know if I love you, but I know I love someone other than my family. I just get this, funny feeling in my stomach and the world starts to grow warmer and warmer when I'm near you. I care about my horrible body, what I'm wearing, what I say, and even what I think.

I just, it's hard to explain. I mean, sometimes I want to slap you, and sometimes I want to hug you. There's never a middle, just always those 2. You can get super funny and cute, or you get super smart and start saying things I have no comprehension of. But, I couldn't ever give you up, maybe for like a BUNCH of candy (just kidding).

But even when we talk about the sad personal stuff, you always seems to find the good in the situation. I'm just that one girl that not everyone likes and not everyone sees the nice side of me, but you, you always seem to find the good in me. You always seem to find that one good side of me, that I can't hold back when I'm with you.

I don't know Jeremy, I might love you, I really don't know right now. I'm just so confused with my life and your life, I don't know what to do. I hate the fact that we never talk at school though. Everyone always says bad things about you, but I never listen. I find the little good moments that have happened to the both of us, and think, "wow, I freaking am so glad I meet you".

But to the point, I'm just confused on this word "Love". It sits in the back of my mind, pondering my deepest imaginations. It taunts me, telling me I will never find it. But one day, one day, I know I will find it, and that one day, I hope you'll be there.

Love, the girl that
has fallen hopelessly,
Kassidy Hutchins💕

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I'm so sorry I couldn't share the name, I mean I'm not ashamed of him. I just don't know if it's the right time to tell anyone...

(Picture is of me in my new 21p shirt)

Love, Kassidy😙