Dear someone who understands,
Who really even knows who the like these days? All we do is just talk with someone for a while and get really close and then stop talking. Which really sucks.
I just want to find someone who won't leave me alone with my thoughts or emotions. I can't be by myself anymore. I want someone to talk to me. Someone who will love me no matter what. Someone who will accept me for who I am.
I cared. I mean I really did care about him. He was always on my mind. Helping me get through the day. Then he left for another girl. And I, I went numb. I put on a fake attitude and smile and act like I'm a strong person who's there for other people. Don't get me wrong I am usually there for that person and they're usually there for me but I want to talk to him.
But most of it was my fault. I told him I didn't really want him. That I wasn't ready to be his girlfriend. That he wasn't what I wanted. But in reality, I wanted to feel his arms around my waist, telling me that everything was going to be alright and we could work everything out.
He listens to me and does everything he can to get me to smile. But, when he left that 1 time, I lost it. I Didn't know how to react and did what my dad did, turned My heart to coldness and went numb. I was tired of thinking of them 2 together and crying myself to sleep. I couldn't do it anymore. I mean, who could?
But now, he dosent talk about her and I feel a little, happy I guess? Just the other day he got in some trouble and was mad and I said "Don't be a pouty butt all day ok?" And he tried to give me a serious mad face but ended up laughing. I felt good for the rest of the day.
Everyone thinks that even though I'm only 13 I can't have feelings that strong for someone. But I actually can. When you know someone is right for you, you can feel it like it's a sign from God himself. You get nervous when they come around, your hands grow sweaty, your stomach gets butterflies and your world goes wild.
Love the girl that tried too much, Kassidy<3
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There. I explained my whole mind set in like 400 words.
(Video 'Somebody that I used to know' vocals only)
Love, Kassidy ;)
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