Love Letters: 7th through 9th Grade

Love Letter 16

Dear Jack,

I think the weirdest thing is when you stop talking to someone and you still know all this left over information about them. Like you still know their favorite song. You know their siblings names. You remember their favorite ice cream flavor and their weird dreams they told you about at 2 am. You know their dogs name and their favorite tv shows. You learned all these details about them and now their gone.

But "just friends" don't look at each other like that.

I'm still hoping its me and you at the end.

Some days I wonder if you miss me, and other days I wonder why I'm still wondering.

Missing someone is part of loving them. If you're never apart, you'll never know how strong your love is.

I don't regret him. The only thing I regret is not being kinder while we still had time. That's all. I wish I had told him he was worth the world and that the stars shine brighter in his eyes than they do in the Night sky. I regret not telling him that I loved him. I wish I would have reminded him of it every day and night. That's the thing. You always forget to remind people when you think you'll have them forever.

I love listening to the songs I did when I first started having feelings for you. It makes my heart flutter. It makes me think of all the things I felt. And it makes me feel like I'm with you.

When you love someone it's never over. You move on, because you have but you take them with you in your heart.

"You can't love someone unless you love yourself first" bullshit. I have never loved myself but you. Oh god I loved you so much I forgot what hating myself felt like.

Your hairs so cute I wish you'd let me run my hands through it.

I want you to be happy, and if it's not with me that's fine. Because you're the only person I have loved enough to put before myself. Seeing you happy makes me happy, and that's what love is...right?

So let's ignore each other, try to pretend the other person doesn't exist, but deep down we both know it wasn't supposed to end like this.

You are still my favorite yet most painful story to tell.

My mind keeps wondering back to you and I don't know how to stop myself from constantly thinking about you and us and everything.
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I freaking freaking freaking freaking wish, he would just quit. Quit putting this pain on me. I cry every time I watch something that makes me think of him, or a song talking about love. I get all emotional and I wish he would forgive me. But he won't. No one ever forgives me because I always mess up everything.

(What hurts the most by rascal flatts)

Crying, Kassidy😖