Love Me, Forgive Me: A 'Love Him, Love Him Too' Novel (Book 2)

Chapter 11

I hid in the toilets during the game and just cried. I couldn’t understand why Jason was acting the way he was. I wasn’t even sure if I wanted to believe him after what he said about the baby and then only using me for sex. Just the other day he was excited about being a father, but now he was acting like he couldn’t care less about it.

I heard the door opening and then Lisa’s voice calling for me. I didn’t answer her. She walked over to my stall since I was the only person in the room. She lay down on her stomach and peeked underneath.

“What happened?” she wanted to know.

I wiped my eyes. “Nothing.”

Lisa crawled underneath the crack and sat down beside me. “You know I’m not going to believe a word you’re saying, especially when you’re missing half of the game. I’m guessing you weren’t sick at all and you went to look for Jason?”

I nodded without meeting my cousin’s eyes. “Yeah, I did.”

I thought Lisa was going to yell at me for seeing him, but she didn’t. She knew something wasn’t right. “What did that jerk do?”

“He…” I burst into tears.

Lisa pulled me close to her and hugged me. I managed to tell her what happened between Jason and me in the classroom. She reminded me that he is just an asshole and I shouldn’t worry about him too much. She wanted to go to the classroom and tell him off, but I told her not to do it. I didn’t want any more trouble with Jason.

“Oh, I have some good news,” Lisa smiled at me. “I got my period during lunch today. I’m not pregnant, Tori.”

I forced myself to smile. I should feel happy for Lisa, but I couldn’t make myself feel happy. We left the bathroom and watched the rest of the game. I didn’t pay attention to it. My mind drifted to Jason. Towards the end of the game I spotted Jason walking into the auditorium. I’m not sure if he saw me. He took a seat in the front row.

Trevor’s team won. I didn’t cheer. I just sat there and stared at Jason. He too wasn’t cheering at all. He turned to look at me and then stood up to leave. I watch him walk out of the auditorium, my heart crushing as he left.

I was glad to get home. I wanted to stay in my room and never leave it again. I knew I couldn’t stay in there forever, but I truly didn’t care. I just wanted to be left alone and forget about Jason. But I couldn’t forget him. He kept occupying my mind and all I wanted to do was scream at the top of my lungs so the stupid idiot could get out of my head. Lisa came into my room, asking me if I wanted to go to Trevor’s party that he was throwing for his team’s victory. I answered no. If I go over there I will see Jason. I didn’t want to see him.

I sat on the windowsill staring out into the backyard. I could hear the R ‘n’ B music from next door. I wonder what Lisa was getting up to. She surely didn’t need me to be there. She was probably making out with Noah Jay.

I wonder what Jason was doing.

I decided I was going over there. It was killing me to know what he was doing. No doubt he was probably getting drunk. My worst fear was that he was making out with some random girl or having sex with them. I wonder if I could go over there and sort things out with him.

I looked around for Jason. I couldn’t see him anywhere in his house. I found Lisa being pressed up against the wall with Noah Jay making out with her. I started to wonder where Jason could be, thinking maybe he wasn’t here at all but he had too. There was no way he would give up a chance to get wasted.

“Looking for Jason?”

I turned around to see Trevor. “Um, yeah I’m looking for Jason.”