Love Me, Forgive Me: A 'Love Him, Love Him Too' Novel (Book 2)

Chapter 9

Jason dragged his brother inside the house and then just dumped his body on the couch. I said goodnight to Jason and decided to leave, but he wanted me to stay.

“Lisa will be mad at me if I stay here,” I told him.

“Screw Lisa. She can survive if you spend a little more time here with me. Do you want a drink?”

I took his offer and followed him into the kitchen. He asked what I wanted and I said water would be fine. He poured himself a glass too. We stood there in silence, not knowing what to say. We couldn’t even look at each other.

“Why did you hit me and then tried to strangle me?” I asked Jason after a long silence.

Jason took awhile to answer. He stared at his feet before looking up at me. “I don’t know why I did it. I didn’t mean to do it. I just got angry with Noah Jay and then you interrupted me, and I just lost it. I came at you without even thinking about what I was doing to you. I didn’t realise what I was doing until Noah Jay told me I was going to kill you… and the baby.”

He looked away from me, feeling a shame.

“Why won’t you believe me that I’m pregnant? Why would you think I’m making the whole pregnancy up just so I could get back with you?”

Jason shrugged his shoulders. “I don’t know. I just didn’t want to believe you and I was still pretty mad at you for leaving. I understood why you left, but at the same time I felt like it was my dad leaving me all over again. He never glanced back at me when he walked out. He said goodbye to the rest of my family but he wouldn’t say goodbye to me. Although you did say goodbye to me, but you never glance back at me.”

I jumped up onto the counter. “I didn’t look back because I knew as soon as I do, I wouldn’t want to leave. At first I thought I was doing the right thing. But as soon as I got back home, I realise I made a mistake about leaving.”

Silence grew between us.

“Why didn’t you come back, Tori?”

I shook my head because truthfully I didn’t know. “I was confused and I wanted time to think about everything that happened. And then I discovered that I’m pregnant. That’s when I realised that I made a huge mistake about leaving.”

“Why did you try to add me on Facebook?”

“I thought I could tell you about me being pregnant, but then Trevor told me you might not accept me at all. He said you were pretty mad at me. So when you never accepted my request, I knew I had to come here to tell you.”

I noticed Jason staring at my stomach and I wonder what he must be thinking. He walked over to me. He reached his hand out but kept pulling it back, unsure if he should put his hand over my stomach. He finally placed it over my stomach and looked up at me.

“I can’t believe that we are going to be parents,” he said.

“Yeah, I got so scared when I found out that I was pregnant. It made me so confuse about everything and I was so afraid you would hate me and not want to have anything to do with the baby.”

“Why wouldn’t I have anything to do with the baby? I helped you created it.”

“Well, you hated me and I figured you probably wouldn’t want anything to do with the baby. I was mostly scared that I had to raise it on my own.”

Jason removed his hand and tucked some of my hair behind my ear, running his fingers through it. “I don’t hate you, Tori. I was just mad at you. Maybe if I have hated you I wouldn’t want anything to do with the baby, but I’m in love with you and this baby is going to be a huge impact on our life now.”