Start of Time (A Jacksgap fanfic)

A Car Crash

Jack came to sit next to me and comfort me as he saw me me crying. “Babe please don’t cry.” He wiped my tears away. “What do you mean you don’t remember? Take your time. We’re listening.”

“This summer I apparently went on a trip throughout Europe.” I began.

“That’s how we met. We were together throughout the entire trip.” Jack commented.

“Well everything was fine until my flight landed in California. From what I was told, I had called my best friend Jason first when I landed. I was complaining to him about my luggage being lost. He says that he tried to calm me down but nothing would work. He says that I was so angry that I didn’t even want to wait for my brother to come pick me up and he tried to convince me to wait but I was too stubborn and still got in a taxi. That’s where our call ended.” Tears were building up in my eyes again.

“The next thing I knew I was waking up in the hospital.  I didn’t know what had happened until my mom told me that I was in a car crash. I was scared and confused. They ran a few tests and it turns out that I lost my memory of the entire summer.” A few tears rolled down my cheeks and Jack rubbed my arm trying to console me.

“From then on things were different in my house. Everyone was always hovering over me. It was unbearable to live there. A week later I decided to take action. I packed up a luggage and made my way to the airport. I got a ticket for London, England. I called Jason and my brother before boarding the plane to let them know what I was going to do. They weren’t pleased and tried talking me out of it but wouldn’t listen. I was just so tired of being treated like a child, like a defenseless child.” Finn reached out and held my hand. “That’s why I’m here. I wanted a fresh start where no one would know about my accident and hover over me 24/7. That’s also why my brother kept calling me my first day here.”

“I remember that. You really didn’t want to talk to him and now I know why.” Finn responded.

“Yeah.” I sighed and there was silence in the room until Finns phone rang.  He looked at me then placed his phone to the side. “Answer it Finn. It might be important.” I urged him to pick up his phone.

“I’ll make it quick, I promise.” He said to me as he walked over into another room.

“So that’s why you don’t remember me. The accident made you forget me.” I nodded. “Or maybe you do still remember me. You mentioned something about me and a dream earlier.” Hope rang in Jacks voice. “Could you tell me about your dream?”

“I was blindfolded and being led somewhere. Then a voice told me to take the blindfold off. I then saw that we were on the beach and on the ground there were…”

“Rose pedals and candles.” Jack cut me off. “Baby that wasn’t a dream, it was a memory. You do remember me. You just don’t remember everything. But even though you may not remember all the amazing moments we spent together or how much you loved me, I’m sure your heart still does.” He took my hand in his and tiled my head up to look at him. “Tell me. Is your heart racing like mine is? Did you feel butterflies when I kissed you earlier? Does your heart melt whenever you look me straight in the eyes like my heart does when I look into yours? Do you feel anything now that I have your hand in mine? Are your hands getting clammy and is your breathing speeding up? Because I feel all those things when I’m near you.” I felt my eyes getting watery. He was right. He was right about everything. I nodded.

“When I saw you at the party, something told me that I knew you but I couldn’t remember you. And then when you kissed me, something within me didn’t want you to stop. I do feel the butterflies and my heart does race.” I gripped his hand harder. I bit my bottom lip hard trying not to cry again. “Believe me when I tell you that I’m trying to remember you but I just can’t.”

“I think I have something that can help.” He pulled out his phone and his screen saver was a picture of him and me kissing. He wasn’t lying; everything that he has said to me is true. I gave the phone back to him and put it away back into his pocket. Then he slightly bent down and brushed his lips against mine and I kissed him back.

Then I heard the door open and it was Finn leaving. He slammed the door shut and I ran after him. “Finn! Stop!” He didn’t look back and quickened his pace. “Please Finn!” he finally stopped walking but didn’t turn around.  His back was facing me.

“I’m sorry. I’m just confused. Jack just showed me a picture of us together and told me that the dream I had the other day was of him and this, this is all a lot to take in. I’m not asking you to forgive me. I just need you to understand what I’m going through.”

“I do understand! But I just heard everything that you said to Jack and it’s like you love him and then I saw you kiss Jack. Alexis that broke my heart. You said you loved me. Were you lying? Was I just some joke to you?” He said as he turned around to face me. He sounded hurt and it was breaking my heart seeing him like this. The entire time that I had known him, he always had this confident exterior and now that was all gone. I could finally see how vulnerable he really is.

I walked closer to him and placed my hand on his face. “On our first date I told you that I don’t lie. Of course you aren’t some joke. Finn I love you. And I’m sorry that I made you feel anything other than that.” He put his hands on my waist and pulled me closer to him to kiss me. This kiss was loving but it was a though he was afraid. We stopped kissing when we heard the door again. I looked back and this time it was Jack leaving and walking in the other direction. Finn became rigid when he saw me look at Jack and his hold on me became harder in hopes that I wouldn’t go after him. I didn’t. I knew I would only hurt Finn more and that’s not something I’m willing to do. But I still felt guilty because I did want to talk to Jack but now wasn’t the time. I turned to look at Finn again and he gave me a small smile but his eyes were sad and watery as though he was about to cry.

I took Finns hand and led him back inside. I laid down next to him on my bed and we just stared at each other for a while. I didn’t feel like sleeping but I could tell that Finn did so I pretended to fall asleep so that he could. Not once had he let go of my hand since I took a hold of it. When I noticed that Finn was fully asleep I got up and went out into the living room where I only turned one light on. I stayed there laying on the couch for a while just staring up at the ceiling and thinking. I hated to admit it but Finn was right. I was in love with Jack but what was crazy was that I don’t even remember him. It made me think about how strong our love really must've been for me to still feel something for him after forgetting all about him.

As much as I might feel something for Jack, I couldn’t let Finn down. I’m with Finn now. He has been supportive throughout this whole thing and I love the moments we spend together. I love him and I’m don’t want to give him up for someone I don’t even remember.

After collecting my thoughts, I returned to my room and laid down next to Finn again. He seemed so peaceful and so handsome. The moment he felt me move he placed his arm over me. Sort of like a non-conscience attempt to make sure I didn’t leave his side. I gave him a small kiss on his cheek and I fell asleep in his arms.

(She loves Jack too!! Whaaaat?!?! Let me know what you thought while reading this chapter, leave a comment telling me what you think will happen next and please like and fan! Thanks for reading!)