Art Book...I Think xD

The Suicidal

One more cut..please..just let me do one more cut!

She slowly moved the blade on every place on her skin..

She was smiling..and crying..but she focused on her smile as she looked herself on the bloody blade..

She thought that smile was happiness..she havent see herself smiling for a while now..

She was addictive to cutting herself..it was like a drug:She cant live without it.

Everything was black around her..so she cut her skin,to put some colour in her life..

Red..red was making her happy..

Red slowly turned the water on the bathtub she was sitting on..

The hot water made her blood redder..

Its so beuatiful...

The blade travelled on her legs and smiled..she didnt feel pain..she felt satisfaction..

She explored her body to find places that didnt cut yet..

She found a little space in her arm and cut:

Beuaty
Smart

Then her other arm:

Perfect
Happiness

She went to her legs:

Love
Care

Her fingers travelled on her fresh cuts and flinched..

It hurts,but it feels good.

She looked at the bathroom door..even though she was locked inside the bathroom for so long,her parents wouldnt even get suspicious..

Who cares..

She trembled and smiled..

I am happy!

She laughed with 'happiness' as tears rolled down her cheeks..

Her vision started getting blurry as everything started getting black..

F-Finally..time to leave this cruel world!!to go somewhere better..to live something better..i am so sick and tired of my life..Finally...

She leaned back and stared blankily at the red water..

Her breath started getting heavy as her heart beated even slower...

At least i will die with a smile on my face.