Abuse (Carl grimes gay fanfiction)

Tears and joy

Adam's pov:
I could hear walker moans outside of the cart I was starting to get kinda scared but I count show it

I guess I thought to soon as the cart door opened I look to see Rick,Glenn,bob and Daryl I smiled widely as everyone poured out of the cart me following close behind we killed walkers in the way as we climbed over the fence

We ran through the woods "here" Daryl says in a dark voice they dogged up a duffle bag I felt a tug on my arm I look over my shoulder to see kat she pulls me a little away from the group I can hear Rick talking in the background as I hear kat says "Adam we have to go I have never trusted these people!" I feel puzzled I don't understand why she won't trust Rick and his group well I guess I haven't known them that long
"B-but how.......how could you not t-trust them?" She gives me this look like I'm crazy "ARE YOU SERIOUS TH-"
She was cut of by someone yelling "ADAM" I knew that voice it was Carl I look at kat then from where the voice was coming from and say in a firm voice "fine you go but I'm not coming"
She sighs and starts to run into the woods but I stop her and say "wait here" I say giving her my knife because she was going to be alone and with no weapon she had no chance I had to help he run some way

She ran of I hear another "Adam cmon" I turn around to see Carl standing there I nod and walk over to him looking at the ground I felt bad really bad but those thoughts left my mind,as Carl intertwined are fingers I smiled at him we walk into a clearing to see the group walking I see carol in the front 'where did she come from?' I guess I said that out loud because Carl responded "she helped us escape from terminus" I nod and squeeze his hand a little harder

We come to a clearing to see tyreese holding Judith,I feel Carl let go of my hand as her runs over to Judith I watch as Rick holds Judith and looks like he's on the verge of tears

And I was the same I was on the verge of tears to I count protect him i count protect my own little brother and it's all my fault,I wipe my silent tears with my sleeve witch just hurts even more due to the cuts under my sleeve I step away trying to make it so no one will see me like this

I was so weak and pathic and just worthless if you can't be strong in this world then your just worthless right.....right?! I was now just sobbing I hated this feeling I hated it so much I fell to my knees putting my hands over my eyes plain out sobbing now I hear someone sit next to me and they pull me into there lap I knew it was Carl

I was sitting in his lap my back to his chest he wrapped his arms around my waist and rubbed soothing circles on my stomach

I finally calm down and whisper in a raspy voice "I'm s-sorry" he hugged me a little tighter from behind "don't be it's not your fault" I stand up and hold out a hand to help him up he takes it and I help him up what I dint expect was for him to hug me but I hugged back

We pulled away from the hug,we looked at each other I looked into his grey pupils damn how I wish I could see the real color of them

He starts to lean in and I lean into him to are lips connect it was a slow passion kiss we slowly pull away and walk back to rest of the group with are fingers interlocked