Never

6

After Mr. Grumpy pants left I was bored out of my mind. I absentmindedly pulled in a loose string at the brim of the warm comfy sweater. 

    I glanced around the room contemplating on what to do. There wasn't much obviously. Because I get distracted easily. The problem was that there wasn't anything to be distracted with.

    I groaned and plopped onto the bed. Why did I accept this stupid mission to bring Mr.Crybaby home? I rolled my eyes at the thought of the cocky raven haired man.

     I strongly think that his sole purpose in life is to aggravate me.

Being stuck on Star killer base is not a fun as it sounds. There's nothing to do, not to mention it's really quite. Like uncomfortably quite.

My thoughts were interrupted by a sudden and very loud knock at the door. I groaned in annoyance. The bed was to comfortable to get out of.

Instead of just standing out of bed like a normal person, I rolled off the bed and onto the floor. (A/n: I actually did this the other day...)

I dragged myself to the door lazily and glared at the person who knocked as I opened the door.

The man had red hair that was slicked back and a ever present scowl on his face.

"And you are?" I sneered rudely. Hey, I was exhausted and not in the mood to deal with people that were equally moody as me.

"General Hux," He grumbled,"Kylo ren wishes to see you."

The prissy little brat couldn't march his but down here himself? Typical.

"Tell Mr.Crybaby that I will be waiting for him to get me himself." I retorted sassily.

Hux sighed and began walking away, "I do not need to deal with another Kylo ren." He muttered stressfully.

I huffed and slammed the door and sat in the bed with my arms crossed waiting for the man baby with temperamental issues.

I stared at the door with a scowl. Suddenly the door swung open to reveal a seething Kylo ren.

"Everything all right?" I said sweetly with my arms crossed.

"You are ridiculous." He snapped.

"You know I don't like talking to a mask." I said smirking.

He ripped off his mask and walked slowly to me. He stared down at me with his chocolate brown eyes in anger.

He grabbed me by my shoulders and pressed his lips to mine.

At first I melted into the kiss. It was something I would have sold my soul for when I was younger. And now I was finally getting to kiss my best friend.

But it really felt like something more. Something that was so captivating, yet so simple.

I shoved him a away and glared at his chocolate brown eyes. "What do you think your doing?" I hissed.

"Kissing you." He whispered as he tried to pull me in for another kiss.

"No!," I exclaimed as I gave him another shove,"You can't just kiss me for no reason!"

"It's not for no reason. It's because I love you." He whispered.

I let out a sick laugh," You don't love me. You love the idea of me. You love the idea of loving someone. But you do not love me."

He shook his head and gripped my shoulders,"But that's where your wrong. I do love you."

I pried his fingers off of my arms.

"No you don't."

"Yes I do, for the first time, I found someone I hate leaving. I found someone that I can't get enough of. I found someone that excepts me for who I am and doesn't tell me I need to change. I think I found someone who I can fall madly in love with. And that's you." He whispered softly in my ear as he clutched my too his chest.

      I sighed as he held me tightly,"One day your mother told me that only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things you've never shared with another soul and the absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams it will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments like the StarNet you. When something wonderful happens, you can't wait to tell them about it knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you're hurting her laugh with you when you make a fool out of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you were not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they're around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because I love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become in valuable treasures kept safe in your heart church forever memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it's like being young again. Color seem brighter and more brilliant laughter seems part of daily life where it was in frequent or didn't exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long days work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence there's no need for continuous conversation, but you find your quite content and just having the nearby things it never interested you before become fascinating because you know they're important to this person who is so special to you you think of this person on every occasion it in everything you do. simple things Bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there's a chance it may be broken Monday and and opening your heart to experience the love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel True pleasure that so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soulmate who remained loyal to the end. Life seems completely different and exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing they are a part of your life,"(A/N courtesy of Bob Marley)

    I looked up into Bens eyes lovingly,"And I knew that when she said that, I immediately thought of you. And I couldn't stop thinking about you because you're the one that I love."

I pressed my lips softly to his and he melted into the kiss in content.