It's always been you | c.t.h

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CALUMS POV
"I'm sorry, I have to go" I push Arianne off of me as I run to my car.  I instantly start my car up, looking at myself in the rear view mirror.

The tears pouring out by now, how could I be such a fuck up? I really didn't see it. She loved me this whole time, while I loved somebody else.

I know exactly what it feels like to be the second option, it hurts like hell to be rejected. And I can't believe that I put my best friend through that pain.

The main question is , do I feel the same way ?

Haylee is beautiful and I do love her very much, but just not in that way. I don't ever want to put our friendship at risk. And falling in love with her would do exactly that.

I need to talk to her, I need to tell her how I feel.

I drive to her house hoping she's there. I've left about 5 messages to her phone, not answering any of them.

I parked my car across the street and sat on her porch, hoping she'd answer soon.

HAYLEE'S POV

"Thank you for tonight, you made me feel a lot better" I smile to Michelle as we turn into my street. "Anytime darling" she says as we pull up to my house. I give her a big hug, "I love you so much, talk to him" she says into my shoulder.

I give her a soft smile before getting out of the car. I walk up the dark driveway, not really seeing where I'm going. I walk up my porch steps carefully.

My keys jingle in my hand, "shit" I whisper to myself as it falls to the floor.

I bend over to search for it, but it is pitch black and I can't see anything. I crawl around my porch floor feeling around for my keys, until my hands touch a foot.

I jump up and scream, waking the person up.

"Haylee! calm down its just me" the familiar voice soothingly says.

Calum.

"C-Calum, what are you doing here?" I mutter trying my hardest not to cry. "We need to talk" he says.

He sits on the porch swing and pats the seat next to him. I hesitantly sit down, looking the other way.

"When did it start?" he asks after a few moments of silence.

"Last year. I don't know, I just couldn't stop thinking about you, or how amazing you are. You just made me happy and I needed someone like that. You were what I needed" I reply.

"I wish I could feel the same about you, love. But I can't, and I don't. Our friendship is too strong, and I don't want to risk it" He says.

I could feel my heart breaking in my chest as the tear slowly ran down my cheek.

"But I love you.." I say.

He adjusts himself on the seat so that now he's facing me, he pulls my chin towards him and somehow through the dark, I can still see his beautiful brown eyes.

"I'm sorry. Believe me, I love you. But not in that way" he replies.

at that moment the tears pour out and I am now sobbing into his chest as he wraps me in his large comforting arms.

"I'm so sorry Haylee" he says as he kisses my forehead, I feel the wetness of his face as his tears hit my head. He's crying too.

I should've saw this coming. He doesn't want me, I mean who would ?

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I woke up next morning with the worst headache. After my crying session with cal last night, he decided it was best to go home.

I feel so hopeless,  "Haylee, someone's here to see you" my mom said as she peeked in my room.

Oh god, please don't be Calum I thought to myself. I got up and walked downstairs.

"Luke!" a smile placed on my face as he stood up from the couch. He wrapped me in his arms, "Hey beautiful" he said into my shoulder.

"I'm so sorry about last night, I just had some...issues I guess" I say as I looked down at my feet. "I can tell, you wanna talk about it?" he asks.

"No not really, but when I do, I'll make sure you're the first person I call" i smile.

After eating breakfast with Luke, he left.

"Hey Haylee" Kylie says as she walks into the living room, "hey" I blankly reply as I stare at the tv that's playing some cheesy romance movie.

"Please tell me what happened, you took off yesterday and everyone was worried about you, even Arianne" she said sadly as she sat next to me on the couch.

I turned off the tv, "do you know what it feels like to love someone, that doesn't love you?" I ask as I try my best not to cry once again.

"yes I do" kylie responds.

"well, it's like that in my case, except I'm in love with my best friend" I say. she gasps and stares at me with wide eyes.

"why didn't you tell me?" kylie asks, "I told no one, I just kept it to myself and last night, I was just done. done with being the second option. I wanted cal to know how I felt, and he sure does now. we had time talk last night, he doesn't feel the same way because he doesn't want to risk our friendship, I don't blame him though." I said blankly as I fumbled with my hands.

"I'm so sorry Haylee, for everything, I can't imagine how much it hurt to see him and Arianne, and to think that i was the one pushing them together. God I'm so stupid" kylie ran her fingers through her hair clearly frustrated.

"No kylie, it's not your fault don't worry. It was my fault...for falling in love with someone that I can't have"

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hey guys ! next chapter I hope you like it although it's kinda short lol