It's always been you | c.t.h

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I have no clue what to do. It is now 3AM and my mind is still on him. The scotch from my moms cabinet burns my throat as I consume shot after shot. Do I still love him? is that even a question, of course i still love him, but i also love Luke.

This is all so overwhelming and i can't help but think about what me and Calum could've been. We have this type of love that can't be explained in words. I would do anything in my power to keep him happy, even if it meant draining my own happiness along with it. I care for him more than I've ever cared for someone in my entire life. I love him, i've never stopped.

CALUM'S POV

The bench seat was cold as i lay my head back on it, the bottom half of my body hanging off the end.I stared up at the dark sky, taking a sip of whiskey that was hidden in my room, under my bed. After my little fight with Haylee, I walked home and grabbed the bottle before driving to the closest community park. I'd say its been about 4 hours since I got here, drowning in my own thoughts and alcohol.

What made me think that she would ever feel the same about me again? i completely broke her heart, but I do love her, more then i've ever loved someone in my entire life. How fucked up could i be? I can't believe i put her through such pain.

She's so perfect, she doesn't deserve what i've done to her. The image of her goes through my head, as i feel the bulge growing in between my legs. I try my best to stop the thoughts of her perfect body but I can't help it. I sink my free hand in my pants as i close my eyes.

After realizing what exactly i was doing, i pulled my hand out and sat up. I can't be getting off in some random park at 3 in the morning. I took another sip of the whiskey in my hand as i stared down at the bulge in my pants. It's so tempting, I'm convinced that this beautiful girl was brought into my life to torture me, to test my every bit of self-control. A voice at the back of my head reminds me that maybe, just maybe, she was sent here for the opposite reason,. Maybe i'm meant to be with her, show her what true love is like. Its probably complete nonsense, but maybe she's not here to punish me, maybe she's here to save me.

"Calum?" i hear the familiar voice behind me. I turn around to see Haylee standing there with a bottle of scotch in her hand. "Haylee? what are you doing here?" i ask in confusion. "I was just going for a walk to clear my mind then i got lost, what about you?" she slurs her words meaning shes drunk.

"Just thinking , thats all" i say as i consume more whiskey. The burning sensation in my throat satisfies me. Haylee walks around me and takes a seat next to me on the bench. "Calum.."she says. "Haylee, don't. I'm sorry i put all of that pressure on you earlier, i should have just kept my mouth shut" I interupt her as i clench my jaw. "No, i'm actually glad you told me, I realized some things.." she says.

My heart stops at her words as i turn to face her. "what did you realize?" i ask. she places her hand over mines and stares deep into my eyes, "i've realized that you can't run away from love. for the past couple of months, i've always denied my feelings for you, and i've come to realization that pushing the love i have for you aside is not gonna make me love you any less. I love you Cal.. i always have...always will, and theres no use in trying to hide that anymore" she softly smiles.

the ends of my lips curl up, revealing the biggest smile ever. I wrapped my arms around her and pulled her into my chest.. She smiles again and looks up into my eyes, her eyes travel from my lips back to my eyes over and over again. I smile one last time before placing my hand on her cheek, i slightly pulled her chin towards me as our faces were centimeters away from each other. "i love you, more" i say as i stare deeply into her brown eyes. A smirk plays on her lips, "prove it, pretty boy" she grins and immediatley i feel the bulge growing again.

I bring our lips together, not even coming up for air for a single second. She moves so that she is now straddling my lap, she wraps her tiny arms around my neck as she slips her tongue into my mouth. Her mouth tastes of mint and alcohol, but i don't mind at all.

My hands travel from her upper back to her bum, giving it a gentle squeeze. I travel down her neck with my tongue, certainly leaving a few marks. She throws her head back, moaning my name. That's it, i can't take another second of not being inside of her. I stand up, our lips still locked as i carry her to my car.

Once inside, i gently push her body down on the leather seats in the back. I unbotton her shirt as i travel down her neck, to her boobs, to her waistline with my tongue. she tastes so good, i look up at her. Her beautiful face is flushed with a light coat of pink as i please her with my tongue.

i slide down her jeans and throw it in the front of the car. She practically whines as she plays with the hem of my shirt, attempting to pull it off. I'm so hard that it almost hurts. I sit up and pull my shirt over my head. Her hands travel from my shoulders to my lower stomach. She slightly tugs on the waist band of my pants as her devious eyes stare up at me.

she sits up and gets on her knees right before unbuttoning my pants an sliding it down my legs. My length springs out of my boxers and slaps up against my stomach, as her eyes widen.

She takes me into her tiny hands and slowly works her wa up and down, quickening the pace as we go. I immediatey feel the knot rising in my stomach, so i stop her right there. "I don't want to come because of a hand job, i want to come inside of you, lets not rush baby girl, we have all night" i smirk.

HAYLEE'S POV

I smile up at him before sitting up quickly back on the seat. "Now baby, let me prove to you that i could treat you so much better than Luke" he smirks as he dips his hand into my panties, running his fingers along my core.

I practically whine, he knows he's teasing me, yet he does it anyways. He pulls his hand out and sucks on his fingers, "mmm you taste so good baby" he says, sending shivers through my body. right then, he slips my panties down my legs. "Lets take this off too" he smirks as he unclips my bra.

"tell me what you want, baby" he teases. "you" i respond. "tell me exactly what you want me to do" he says. " i uhm want you to..." i cant find my words as i grow more insecure by the second. "you want to ride me ? or you want me to fuck you so hard that you can't feel your legs tomorrow morning" he smirks. I whine at his use of words right before pushing him back on the seat.

I want to be in control tonight. he grins right before grabbing me and placing my legs so that im straddling him. I grab his hand and run it along my slit, right before i suck at his finger tips, taking in my juices. Im sure its driving him mad.

I grab his dick under me, and slowly slide down. It takes me a few moments to adjust, considering that he is a lot thicker than Luke was. i throw my head back in pleasure as i slowly work my way up and down his shaft. "You like that baby? do i make you feel good?" i tease as i quicken the pace. "fuck" he says right before he harshly pushes me onto the seat, with him hovering over me now. He thrusts into me as i scream his name. "Oh fuck yes baby, does that feel good?" he moans, i stay silent as he continues to fuck the shit out of me. "answer me princess, does it feel good?" he asks, "Yes daddy" i say, knowing its driving him crazy at my use of words.

"c-calum, i'm gonna come baby" i moan as i feel the knot in my stomach grow. "hold on a little longer for me baby, just a little longer" he says in a deep voice as he takes my legs and puts it against his shoulders, going deeper. "fuck baby i don't think i can hold much longer" i moan. "okay, come for me baby, scream my name, let everyone know who the hell is fucking you" he growls. "Calum!" i scream as i ride my climax, "f-fuck, fuck oh fuck" he growls right before coming inside of me.

He falls beside me, as we take a few moments to catch our breath. Luke has never fucked me that good.

HEY GUYS! omg i feel so bad for all the smut lmao, but i hope you enjoy