The vampire's wolf

The vampire's wolf- Chapter 6- I won't let you lose yourself

Dimitri’s P.O.V.

Warm.

I was warm.

But it was unusual… the warmth was some sort of warmth that I never felt before.

I wanted more of it. More of that warmth that made me feel safe.

Oh how I wanted more. It was so addicting, that warmth, that I wanted to bathe in it.

And the scent… the scent was just heavenly.

It was a mix of citrus and something musky… earthly… strong.

Yes, strong. The warmth was strong too…

A person. That’s who was giving me warmth and that wonderful scent.

And I could feel the person’s… no, the man’s… power.

It was like he was wrapped all around me, taking over my senses and overruling every thought I had, other that the thoughts of him.

It was weird, but I didn’t mind. I just wanted this to last as much as possible.

I had fallen asleep I think. I was so tired this morning, but Lucian took me to bed.

“L-Lucian…” I murmur and try to bury myself deeper into that warmth and scent.

“Did you sleep well, pup?” Lucian’s deep voice sends shivers down my spine and I open my eyes.

I was between Lucian’s legs, my head on his abdomen and one of his arms was stroking my hair while the other was resting on my back.

I think I’ve gone insane.

Yes, that has to be it.

Otherwise I wouldn’t be in this position with Lucian the Vampire King.

And then it all came back to me and I froze.

“M-Mate…” I whispered, somehow not being able to make my voice stronger.

I have a mate and it’s none other than the Vampire King.

I knew I should be enraged and frustrated, but I couldn’t find the rage inside of myself.

“Yes, little one, mate. We’re mates.” He said in a husky whisper, “And that makes you mine.”

His? How can I be his?! I’m my own person!

Still… when I think about it… it sounds good… me being his and all.

But I can’t.

If I do it, submit to him, let him take over, I’ll lose myself.

And if I lose myself, I lose everything.

“You won’t lose yourself.” He said. Shit, I forgot he could do that, “You won’t be the same as now, true, but you won’t ever lose yourself. You will discover your true nature this way, discover what you want, how you want it and how to make it happen. Losing yourself is something totally different. To lose yourself means that you have lost every part of common sense and knowledge that makes you function as a normal person. To lose yourself means that you don’t know of anything you have ever learned and you go on autopilot, never picking up anything new. To lose yourself means becoming an empty shell of a man. To lose yourself means you lose every aspect of humanity you have in you and the beast side takes over, because all of us have a human side in us.

“Yes we are paranormals in all shapes and sizes, but all of us need something that will make us understanding, loving, caring. That is humanity. Our human side. If we didn’t have that, we would all be cold, ruthless bastards without a personality and the only thing that all of us would have different than the rest of the paranormal world would be the way we look. Maybe not even that.