My Love

Chapter 16

"can you please continue liking me?"

That sentence keep on repeating on my mind making my heart beat accelerated faster and faster every second I'm afraid it will burst.

"I don't know. I don't know if I still can." I answered sincerely.

That's the truth. Even though I still love him, I am afraid to experience the pain again. He can be so confusing sometimes it makes me crazy.

Should I gamble my heart again?

Mark didn't say anything after that. We stayed there for a couple of minutes just watching the waves clash until he told me that we should go to our friends and like earlier today he is held my hand.

While walking I kept on thinking if I said the right thing to him. To be honest, deep in the center of my heart I know I am still hoping that maybe just maybe we can be together.

He turned to look at me questionably when I stopped walking as I tug on his hand.

"I don't think I ever stopped liking you." I confessed, my gaze piercing right thru his.

And that's it I saw the most amazing smile in the world. He smiled like there's no tomorrow what makes it more angel like is the moon brightly shinning above us. I never noticed my heart beating fast not taking off my eyes from his face.

He then pulled me in a tight hug.

"really? You still like me?" he asked still hugging me, surprise is evident in his voice.

I nodded in response tears glistening in my eyes. This is so overwhelming, how can he be so happy knowing that I still like him when in just a few weeks ago he wants me out of his life?

"good job Jin ae-yah." releasing me he ruffled my hair and we proceeded walking to our friends hand in hand.

"Hey what took you guys so long? We've been waiting." Junior oppa called once he spotted us.

We apologized quickly sitting near the bon fire as they all sat around it.

My face is hot with embarrassment cause Mark never let go of my hand, when I tried to pull it he just tightened his grip and acted like it's not a big deal.

Well it is for me. I can't even look at my friends eyes anymore. Who I can guess is looking at us finding a chance to tease us.

"hey Mark hyung your lips is going to rip off from smiling too wide. Stop it you look like crazy." Jackson laughed breaking the silence.

Everyone laughed at Mark except for me. I looked at Jackson guiltily which he smiled in return mouthing an "it's okay".

But I know him too well to see that he's not okay. I can see it in his eyes and it's killing me to know that I have caused him pain.

After giving him a stiffed smile, I fixed my gaze on the ground. I need to talk to Jackson soon.

The night continued with us catching up with each other, endless games were played, I got scolded from being out of contact for two weeks resulting me to promise not to do that again and we ended it with promising to do this kind of trip again every month.

During the games Mark let go of my hand making me feel relieved. You can't judge me, I am still not used to it and with our friends have constantly giving me a teasing look is not helping.

As soon as Yura unnie and I entered our room she never wasted any time and interrogated me.

"Oh my God! Tell me everything!" she said squealing while on the process of dragging me to the bed.