Purity // Zico

11

"As distance tests a horse's strength, so does time reveal a person's real character."

Chapter Eleven

It was strange watching Jiho on television- like I know that guy, like actually know him. I could hardly help but smile watching him on 'Sexy Brain Man' speed rapping and trying to speak Chinese. Gosh, how in the world could someone talk that fast or be so adorable? It seems quite unreal. It was practically impossible not to get enchanted by his never ending charm, especially in the public eye. His laugh, smile; and yet, he was still the same person I've known for awhile now. Jiho was a genuine, real guy...

One that I had fallen hard for. He would have bragging rights now I'd say... he got me, Jiang Chan to fall head over heels for him, something no other guy could possibly ever say. Granted, he was one of the three to four guys I even talked to. So, maybe it's not such an accomplishment. But for me, I felt stupid. It was a blunt way to word it, except maybe not. Woo Jiho aka Zico, was an idol, a rapper, and very famous. People practically worshipped him. His time on SMTM was a hit, all of his solo stuff is loved by almost everyone. This is the guy that released "I am you, you are me," just a few months back, and now he was in charge of his whole groups comeback. He'a unbelievable. It's easy to see why he has so many fans- of course including me.

I decided to keep Somin updated on Jiho. She was practically ecstatic to hear that I was letting someone "in," finally taking some of her advice. I could easily go to her about my feelings and if I felt uncomfortable she helped me work through it. She said something along the lines of, you have to be completely comfortable when you're with a guy; especially for my case. And I'd like to say, that I think we're getting there.

It just happened to be another lonely stormy night. Lightning flashed off in the distance, a booming thunder sounding soon after. Nights like these I hated to be alone. Loud creaking noises, everything seemed so much more heightened in these type of conditions. It was now that perfect time to stay up and do school work since there was no way I was going to sleep.

***

"All you do is talk about her Jiho, seriously. Do something about it." Kyung said casually while scrolling through something on his phone.

"I don't know."

"When we met her at the club she seemed so sweet. Seriously Jiho, she could so be the one." Jihoon said excitedly looking over.

"I'm pretty sure she's friend zoned me anyways."

"You have to make your feelings known."

"Oh I'm sure I already have." It depresses me quite honestly, to think I've given so many cues to Chan and she doesn't even notice. But why does that surprise me? She doesn't seem like someone who can read in between the lines, I may have to be straight forward with her. But the real questions are;

Does she trust me? Is she comfortable with me? Do I scare her? Does she even like me? The last thing I want is to hurt Chan in any way, have her not be comfortable with me. I love seeing the way she smiles and her nose crinkles up, it's especially cute when she blushes too.

"Then ask her out." Kyung said bluntly.

"I-it's not that simple."

"Uh yeah it is. All you do is go, hey Chan, be my girlfriend. Than bang, you're good to go."

I stared at him and spoke rather annoyed and sarcastic, "really?"

"Aish don't roll your eyes! I'm pretty much being serious.."

"You really are stupid sometimes."

"Sometimes is the key there! Just ask her out!" There's this point that two people almost know when they're 'talking' and I'm sure Chan doesn't see that. Hell, I hardly even know if it's there between us. We're just friends. That's all we are, even though I like her more than that.

"Is Jiho still talking about Chan?" Yukwon asked in a teasing way as he walked into the studio.

"What else would he be doing?" P.O took his headphones off just to call out.

"True true. All I know, is if you do something bad Jiho, Sunhye will kill you!"

"I'm sure she would..." Sunhye was nice, she's not the intimidating type- but that Ming girl. She's got me running in the other direction for sure. How are her and Chan friends?

"You're so whipped for her already it's hilarious. I can't wait to see how you are if you date!"

"I am not whipped..." I shot back. It wasn't a compliment but it wasn't necessarily the worst thing Jihoon's said, or could be said to me.

Focusing on work refused to come easy- there felt like no point at the moment. Variety show after variety show; and music show after music show... it was beyond exhausting. The only free time I was getting to myself, I always tried to go see Chan, but the past few weeks were finally starting to catch up.

"Go sleep or something." Kyung murmured to me under his breath.

"Yeah, maybe I should."

"Besides we have nothing going on really tomorrow except for maybe Jaehyo, so rest.. or see if Chan wants to do something." my close friend smirked, "or whatever."

"Maybe I'll ask."

"You probably will knowing you."

"You don't know that."

"You're trying to get with her, of course you're going to." It wasn't a lie to say Kyung didn't know me at all. He was my best friend, and that meant he knew every mood I could be in or what I may be thinking. Sometimes, it pisses me off though.

"Why should I put her through that though?"

"Through what?"

"Being in a relationship with me. I won't be around ever. At least not now."

"So? I mean, maybe it's good for the beginning, and like she'll see if she can handle it or not."

"It's still unfair."

"It's unfair to you too."

[okay so I have no idea where to take this next]

[the poster from my "Blooming Period" album finally came in and it's beautiful and looks great on my wall xD I had to change stuff up because I have waaay too many covering my walls aha]