The Art of Letting Go (SMFMHE's book2)

What if it's you? (First part)

-Reba McEntire

Mika and miguel sa starbucks near admu

Miguel: hahaha and yung prof namin dyosko! Bading yats! Nasstress ako lagi ako tinatawag :)) everyone in my class is teasing us na :))

Mika: ...... (Tulala lang)

Miguel: huy!

Mika:......

Miguel: i've been telling you stories kanina pa di mo ko pinapansin..

Mika:......

Miguel: yats!!

Mika:.....

Miguel: mahal parin kita ye..

Mika: ano?! Hoy! May camille ka na! Umayos ka babs! Sasapakin kita!

Miguel: hahahaha yun lang pala makakakuha ng atensyon mo :)) joke lang yats! Anoba. Hahaha

Mika: ugh bwiset ka.

Miguel: what's bothering you ba at napasugod ka dito ng wala sa oras tas di mo naman ako pinapansin..

Mika: wala.. Masama ba bisitahin ang bestfriend ko?

Miguel: sus. I know you too well. What's up? And monthsary nyo pa now.

Mika: nagpaalam ako sa kanya. She's busy din naman lam mo naman na running for DL yun..

Miguel: so no plans for tonight?

Mika: nah. I dont think so.

Miguel: anong problema ye? Wala pa kayo isang linggo na okay ah.. Problema agad?

Mika: wala babs.. Wala kami problema.. Ako lang.. Ako yung problema..

Miguel: what do you mean?

Mika: i had a dream last night. Iniwan ulit ako ni ara. Alam ko panaginip lang sya pero damang dama ko padin yung sakit. Alam ko okay na kami. Pero..

Miguel: you're filled with fear..

Mika: sobra.. Takot na takot ako babs... Takot na takot :(

Miguel: you're finding it hard to trust her again?

Mika: masisisi mo ba ko? Babs ang dami nyang ipinangako noon na hindi natupad kasi iniwan nya ko. Ang tagal na dinibdib ko lahat nung sakit.

Miguel: but she's back na.

Mika: alam mo ba yung feeling na, dahil iniwan na nya ko noon, pakiramdam ko, kayang kaya nya ulitin yun? Babs.. Hindi ko na alam kung kakayanin ko pa kapag naulit yun. Hindi ko alam...

Miguel: (hinawakan kamay ni mika) this is the hard part. Hindi yung separation. Kundi yung "let's try again"

Mika: ano ibig mong sabihin?

Miguel: believe me. Moving on is so much easier than trying again with that same person. Learning how to let go is easier than learning to love that person again. Lalo na if you went through so much pain during that break up.

Mika: but i never stopped loving her naman. How would loving her again be that hard?

Miguel: you still love her pero it's not the same kind of love you had for her before she left you. Tama ba ko o idedeny mo?

Mika: i hate you.

Miguel: look yats. Syempre nagpipigil ka na. The fact na natatakot ka ngayon na iiwan ka ulit ni ara, means hindi mo na binubuhos yung 100% na pagmamahal mo sa kanya. That fear of having your heart broken will force you not to love that person completely. Para if that day comes na iwan ka nya, may matitira sayo..