The Art of Letting Go (SMFMHE's book2)

Just let it go

-4tune

Nakatayo lang si mika sa may pintuan, nakatitig sa mga shoebox na nasa harapan nya. may nakasulat na dates dito. june2013, march2014, november 2015.. nangmanhid yung buong katawan ni mika. hindi makapaniwala na hindi pala tumigil si ara sa pagsusulat. Di rin nya alam kung san magsisimula.

Umupo sya sa kama. Wala pang kinukuha kahit isang box. Tinititigan lang nya ang mga to at iniisip ng mabuti kung alin yung babasahin nya.. Humiga si mika sandali tas tinitigan yung kisame..

Mika: so numb. I feel so numb. 

Umupo ulit to tas tinignan yung mga box..

Mika: guys medj mabigat pa loob ko.. As you all know kakabreak ko lang.. So.. (Kumuha ng isang box) may 2013.. Malamang masasaya lang nasa loob mo diba? Ikaw na muna ha..

Kumuha ng isang letter si mika. Di na pinansin yung date, yung unang papel na nahawakan nya yung kinuha nya.

"For someone like me, i really never expected something like this. You know what i mean. Since i was a kid, nung unang beses pa lang na naramdaman ko na iba ko, iba yung gusto ko, i was so afraid. Well for one, i was frightened of my family. I didnt know how to tell them. I wasnt sure how they would react. Next i was afraid to tell my friends. I was actually terrified of the fact that i may not find real friends just coz i was.. Well.. Different. It was hard for me to act the way i want to act. And ofcourse, i was certain that i'd really never have the chance to fall inlove. Check that, i know i'll fall inlove. I was just sure that any girl i love would instantly turn away. And earlier today, our 11th day together, (no hon i'm not counting every second and every day hehe), when i opened my eyes and saw you beside me, you were leaning against the wall, and just like any other day you were surrounded by those post its, you looked at me and said "honeeeey goodmorning hihi i love you!!" Oh honey.. Youve made the most impossible dream of mine come true. 11 days and i still can't grasp this reality. Is this true? Are you really mine? If this is all just a dream please don't ever wake me up.."

Nakangiti si mika nun pero umiiyak sya. Isang sulat pa lang.. Pero bumabalik na sa kanya lahat. Naalala nya yung pakiramdam nung bago palang sila ni ara. Yung pakiramdam na parang sasabog yung puso nya sa sobrang saya. Yung pakiramdam na sa kanya si ara.. Kumuha ulit sya ng isa pang sulat mula sa box na yun.

"You might be used to hearing this na. Pero sana iba padin effect sayo pag ako nagsasabi. Miss, you're the most beautiful girl in my life. Not saying this coz girlfriend kita. also not saying this kasi nasunog ko yung ulam mo kanina (sorry hehe). it's just true. Dude you don't know how many times i pray to God na makasalubong kita sa hallway. It's kinda funny coz ganito ko before pa. And now tayo na but inaabangan ko padin na makasalubong ka. Believe me, the way your fans act around you, all the cheers and "kilig", baby i feel all those things everytime you pass by our classrom just to say hi :"> (thanks pala dun kanina hehe). I just want to say, ang lakas po ng dating mo! and i'm the luckiest person kasi ako mahal mo wooo <333"