The Art of Letting Go (SMFMHE's book2)

Scared to death

--Kz Tandingan

rewind tayo sa araw ng pagalis ni miguel.. nakahiga lang si jeron sa kama nya at paulit ulit na binabasa yung sulat ni miguel sa kanya…

"bully sya tawanan mo na lang lagi. 

there'll be times na masasaktan ka talaga, wag mo ideny sa sarili mo. 

alam ko alam mo ng di sya masarap magluto.. but lagi mo sabihing masarap luto nya.

sobrang mahal nya si ara.. there'll be times na aayaw sya.. pigilan mo sya. kasi hindi naman nya kaya panindigan..

pag umiiyak sya, bigyan mo sya ng chocnut.

pag kaylangan nya ng time magisip dalhin mo sya sa malayong lugar. yung konti lang tao.

always reassure her na hindi ka mawawala. kaylangan nya yun.

always be "just a call away"

make sure na hindi nya mararamdamang magisa sya..

give her good advices. 

wag mo itolerate mga away nila ni ara kasi most of the time mali talaga sila both.

reassure ara na hindi ka threat kahit nagseselos sya sayo.

know her favorite places.

no need to know her favorite food nilalamon nyan lahat.

make her feel better pag may nangbabash sa kanya.

always protect her.

always keep her safe.

don't be afraid to fall…."

sobrang dami pang bilin ni miguel at para bang kinakabisado yun ni jeron..

"know her "malungkot", "galit", "nagtatampo" look and voice..

never leave her pag umiiyak sya.

always pat her in the head before you leave..

be her hero."

halos di na nakatulog si jeron sa pagbasa nung sulat ni miguel..

"i know you're confused.. na you're asking why i gave this to you and not ara… simple. alam na nya lahat yan. ang problema, pag di na sila okay, it's like she forgets all those things.. and i'm afraid na pag nagkasakitan na sila, mawala na lahat kay mika. i know you have jane.. i'm not asking you to break up with her.. i'm not asking you to love mika again.. all i'm asking, is for you to be there for her.. inisip ko kung sino sa LS.. wala kasi lahat sila apektado kada away nina mika.. and well, honestly you're perfect for the job."

jeron's POV: DUDE! you're asking me to be you! i can't be you! you're... you're like mika's angel who knows her who can't hurt her who's a saint at giving advices and making situations better. dude! i can't be you…