Insecure | Zach Clayton | Permanent Hiatus

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"Raegan you have to go to school." Mom ordered, throwing the blankets off of me. I groaned in annoyance and shifted my body to the other side.

"Get of bed." Mom ordered one again.

I fought back tears I really didn't want to wake up. I really shouldn't have to wake up and go to school.

School is horrible, i have no idea what they are going to say or do today now that I'm back. It scares me knowing I have no control over what they will say.

"Raegan please go to school ill even drive you. We can drop by Starbucks on the way." My Mom bribed.

Starbucks, hmmm. Was it worth it? Hell yes.

"Let's go." I exclaimed running to my closet once I heard those words. I picked out a random outfit and smiled lightly.

My mom chuckled and walked out of my room so I could get dressed with privacy.

As soon as I got dressed mom kept her promise and took me to Starbucks for a mocha frappe with whipped cream. I sighed while smiling at the cup. I got a medium, so that means it won't last very long.

But do you wanna know what will last long? School will last long. I mean. Whole fourth of my days in approximately most of my life:

I already missed a month of that shit, thankfully dad talked them out of staying out. He's a lawyer.

"Get out of the car Raegan. I'll pick you up at 2 okay?" Mom explained I frowned. School starts at seven Fourty but I have to be there at seven thirty then it ends at two but I don't get home till two thirty or later mostly later if I take the bus. Is it worth spending seven and a half hours at this hell hole.

No.

Of course not.

I know I'm not the only one that hates school in my school. Although, I'm the only one that fucking acts like I hate school.

The girls are too busy flirting the boys and the boys are too busy trying to pull down their pants for a girl to go run over to them and suck their ugly-short ass dick.

Thank you school for giving me a reason to cry every morning. I appreciate it.

I ignored the rest of my thoughts and walked  into school my heart was beating loudly. I wanted to fucking scream I didn't want to fucking go to this hell hole. I wanted to cry I wanted kick every fucking thing.

I wanted to fucking leave. My breathe hitched into my thought and I felt like I couldn't breathe. Oh no.

I haven't even had an anxity attack since I was eight, but now seven years later I'm having another one.

My body was shaking I had no control over anything that was happening. My brain was trying to fight off tears but the anxiety was too strong.

When tears were forming into my eyes that's when I felt an arm bring me to the abandon classroom no one entered. Luckily it was close by to my locker.

"W-ho? W-hat?" I stuttered, my body still shaking now with more fear an anxiety.

"Sh-hhh it's just me, Zach."

My body let go some of the anxiety but I was still shaking and now the tears have came out of my eyes and I was now crying violently.

My teary eyes caught Zachs gaze and saw that his too were glossy with tears. Expect mine were way more glossy then him.

"H-hey your okay okay?" He said with his breath panting. He had no idea what to do and neither did I.

Out of no where while my crying increased more at the thought of people in the hallways,---- Zach hugged me.

I was living one of those cliche wattpad story every writer gets stuck writing without knowing.

However, right now I didn't care when his touch touched me my body stopped shaking. My tears stopped flowing.

My anxiety went away. In this moment in was free with his arms wrapped around me I had no worries.

I was no longer cold with goosebumps running down my arms and legs.

I was now warm completely warm with no coldness running down my arms. Some tears were still going down my cheeks but those are the ones I have control of.

Instead of crying into Zach with having no choice too because I wouldn't dare run away from him while shaking.

I was now crying into his shoulder while he hugged me and i hugged him. No words spoken but words were not needed.

The only word that every came out of my mouth then is a thank you and I backed away from his hug and looked into the blue eyes I had just learned to love.

Oh God...

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Well um..

That escalated quickly. Really really quickly but a lot is still coming, and I mean a lot.

Oh my god thank you for 1k you have no idea how thankful I am for y'all

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You can picture whatever outfit she was wearing but that is just the outfit I have pictured in my mind while writing this.

I coughed and some moron mocked saying "heh-chu" like sneezing. Wth?