Insecure | Zach Clayton | Permanent Hiatus

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I was so hot. Hot as in the temperature of course. It might have been a weak sense I left? I don't actually know maybe two weeks. It's been a long time since I've left and I'm so hungry.

Their missing signs of me everywhere. Its stupid though. I obviously don't want to be found. I really don't want to be.

I almost got caught once too, and that is why I'm hiding in the public restroom at McDonalds. I'm also charging my phone in the public bathroom.

I was eating French fries and I had a water besides me. There was no way I was going to eat any of that. Besides, I could afford any thing else, I spent my money at Sonic.

So, I'm savoring my French fries, water and my five dollars I stole from a guitar case.

Yeah, being out here alone has caused me to be a savage. SAVAGEEEE! To be honest I don't know why I was still running away.

I wasn't dramatic though I always had a reason, it's either a horrible reason or a really good reasoning. I'm just going to trust the fact that I ran away for a good reason.

Probably a dramatic reason though, but its too late to go back. People were searching for me, however. They had signs of me everywhere.

Almost everywhere, my parents hardly seemed to care about me but their were still signs missing wanted signs of me everywhere. Everywhere.

I wasn't even that important and their were still signs posted all around.

"You okay, in there?" I heard a light knocking on the bathroom stall I was in.

"Y-yeah I'm fine." I croaked out
at the end I sighed in relief because it felt like ages since I've last talked. It felt like ages until I last used my phone.

Maybe people were worried about me because my phone has 208 text messages asking where I was and if I was.

From Cecilia: Where are you?
From Cecilia: What happened to u?
From Cecilia: I'm scared where u at?

Those were just three messages from Cecilia but I didn't even respond. I just scrolled though my other messages.

From Dad: Raegan, Come home
From Dad: Are you okay?
From Dad: What's wrong?

Once again I did not respond, instead I looked through more messages. I didn't think people would care this much to text me asking if I was okay.

From Caden: everyone is worrying
From Caden: U dead?
From Caden: Where r u I'll pick u up
From Caden: I'll get u food

The last four texts from Caden were really tempting, he did say he would get me food... Although, I was eating French fries right now I didn't actually need food. It was really tempting for me to respond to Cecilia or Caden they were my only friends. They are the only ones I can trust, Zach is the one I can't trust.

My phone was charging, I didn't need anything. Sitting in this small bathroom stall could really benefit me.

I continued to scroll through my phone when I got a notification that bruhitszach was live. I didn't even know I fanned him on younow. Oh well, I have nothing better to do.

I clicked on his broadcast and I heard his voice.

"Hey guys. Most of you have noticed why I haven't exactly been myself and I'll just tell you why." He started, my eyes widened I had a feeling this had something to do with me.

It probably didn't have anything to do with me because I didn't even know him that well. Or at all really.

"No, I'm not quitting social media you guys mean way too much to me for me to so that."

I was beyond interested to hear what he was happening about, and what was going on while I left.

"There's a girl actually." He blushed and my insides turned. I was a girl but most likely not the girl he was talking about.

"She recently just ran away from her house, I knew her too. We went to the same school. She was quiet and one day she stood up for herself." Zach started.

Yeah..., it was about me actually.

"Recently our school has came up with rumurs that she tried forcing me to have sex with her and obviously that's a lie." Zach blushed at the awkwardness of the topic.

"She thought I started the rumors, I didn't." He added, a sighed escaping my mouth.

I didn't care how sincere  he was sounding, I still couldn't fully trust him.

"I don't know why this is affecting me so much. I barely even know her she acts like she hates me. Before she left I watched her leave I watched her run. I couldn't follow her. I couldn't bring myself to follow her. The stupid football team threw pie at her, they covered her beautiful face with whipped cream and pie." He exclaimed his eyes looked glossy and I could tell mine were too.

Why would he care that much about me? How could any one care that much about me? I wasn't that pretty, I wasn't---

"By the time my--- excuse my cussing--- by the time my fucking words got of my mouth it was too late. She was already about to cry." Zach stopped talking and closed his eyes in thought.

"They made her cry, like they made her cry. What the hell? they made someone so fucking beautiful and perfect looking and sounding and personality wise cry? How could someone like the be that heartless?" He screamed in frustration after.

I concentrated on his face patterns, he actually looked like he cared. No body and I repeated no body ever looked like that when they were talking about me.

"If you watching me right now and you're one of those assholes from my school, excuse my cussing fam, but fuck you." Zach said after a while of silence.

I couldn't believe what I was hearing, he actually cared. He actually cared about me but why? He knew nothing about me.

"And if your Raegan watching this, please please be okay please come back."

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I love this chapter so much oh my god they are goals in this chapter. I have so many feels oh my fuc--- I mean fudge.