-------- hey I'm going to be giving this fic to my friend kate to finish so if you read her fic enjoy it, thank youuuuu---------------------
valentinas pov*
"Hurry up and take a picture!"
"They look so cute together!"
"Awww!"I heard an array of voices say.
I opened my eyes and saw Ash was in-between my breasts, with my arms around her.
"Good morning sleepyhead!"Ashley groaned and sat up, leaning on my chest.
"Morning guys."She said.
"You know, if I weren't your boyfriend I'd think you were a thing."Ash laughed as well as I did.
"Val?"Mikey asked. I looked over at him.
"Can we...talk?"
"No."I said sarcastically.
"Of course."I said. I pushed a sleeping Ashley onto Frank, and walked with Mikey to the back room.
"I know this is about yesterday, and I'd rather not speak of it because I'm fine. If you don't love me that's fine. If you do great!"
"No."
"Excuse me?"
"No. You're not fine. Look in the mirror!"I looked in the mirror as my eyes teared up. I had a huge bruise on my arm from heroine, bloody nose, bags under my eyes, tear stained cheeks, and I had gained some weight. I excused myself and went to the bathroom. I stood on the scale and saw I had not gained, but lost a pound. I sighed in relief and laughed, then went back to talk to Mikey. He patted the seat next to him.
"Why didn't you tell me?"He said, staring into space.
"I wasn't sure if you'd hate me."
"Val, I could never hate you!"I looked over and saw something I wish I hadn't. His eyes. They were filled with sorrow. They weren't looking at me though.
"Val...."
"I know. I know."
"When did you start?"
"When I was 13. I was with my friend Hannah and she gave me ecstasy, told me it was a headache pill. I found out what it was after I took it. I got addicted and couldn't stop. When I turned 14 my parents had financial issues so I had to make my own money. So I-"
I cant tell him I deal!!! Not yet at least...just tell him a lie.
"You can tell me."
"It's really embarrassing!"
"It's okay."
"I worked in a bakery."I lied.
"Aww!"I fake-blushed.
"Shut upp!!"
"Anyways, is there anything else I should know?"
Just tell him about Ronnie's and the dealing!!
"Not that I can think of."
"Okay."
"I'm tired I'm gonna lay down."
"Okay, I'm coming with." I laid down in the bunk and fell asleep.
"Valentina get out of the car!"Someone yelled. I looked at myself, in a car, getting ready to drive. I looked so high.
"How do you like my UFO?"I....well other me said, sticking out my tongue, revealing ecstasy.
"Oh no."I said. Ashley, Frank, Mikey, Ray, Gee, Paris, and Lynz were in the car. I started to drive and jerked to a stop as I skid and rolled off the hill, crashing into a tree and rolling down into the water, eventually the pressure breaking the windows. Water flooded in as I grasped my last breath of oxygen. I tried grasping another, but instead got a gulp of water. I saw everyone around me drown. I couldn't die! I died slowly, as I was losing consciousness, everyone's face gathered around me.
"Why Valentina? Why?!"
"Fuck you."
"I can't believe you selfish prick!"
I shot up and looked for Mikey. He wasn't there. I ran to Ashley's bunk, remembering the promise we made.
If you ever have another nightmare, come to me.
I climbed into her bunk and hugged her as tight as possible.
"Another?"I nodded as she sighed and wrapped her arms around me.
"I'm falling. Back into my low low. Falling into the spiral."
"You'll be okay, you have Mikey now, and all of the guys."She said, rubbing my back.
"I'm scared."I said. Ashley tensed up. I had never been scared before, well at least I never told her. She kissed the top of my head.
"Why?"
"I don't want to hurt you."
"It's okay, it didn't really hurt. It was only a light slap-"
"No. I mean in the future. I don't want to hurt any of you. You're my sister!"Ashley laughed.
"Hey, don't worry bout it. If you ever hurt me, I'll hurt you right back."I laughed, and cuddled into Ashley.
"Sleep here for the rest of the night."
"Where are the guys?"
"They went out for a coffee."I nodded and closed my eyes. When I opened them again, I saw Ray looking at me in Ashley's bunk.
"Hey! Gave us a bit of a scare right there. Mikey thought you ran out on us."
"No, just had to ask Ashley a question and fell asleep."Ray laughed and went back to the drivers seat with Paris. I got up and sat down next to Mikey on the couch. He looked down at me and smiled warmly. He smelt of...peppermint, and coffee. I melted into his arms and he smiled. Ray stopped the car.
"We're here!"I jumped up and ran outside. It was just like I remember it. I ran into the Campus and up the stairs to my bed from when me and Ashley were kids. I threw my stuff onto the bed and ran downstairs, outside, and into Mikey-BY ACCIDENT! I blushed and looked up at him.
"Fancy seeing you here."He said, laughing. I grabbed his hand and walked with him into the campus.
"I bring to you, Fort Ashentina!"I said, opening the doors to the campus. The guy's mouths dropped. They put their bags down in a bed and walked into the living room. The living room had a 90in flat screen and a couch that can fit 10 people. We gave them the grand tour and then after, we sat down on the couch, relaxing, watching TV.
*Mikeys pov*
Somethings wrong. I can see it. She's lying. There's something else that she's not telling me. I looked down at her and smiled. I looked at her closely when something twinkled in my eye. I fixated my gaze on what seemed to be a locket....with the letter A on it.
We pulled up at a cemetery and saw a person in a gray hoodie and baggy sweatpants giving what looked like a bong to a guy and him handing the person a wad of money.
"That's them."Gee said. He got out of the car and I followed him. He ran a hand through his shaggy hair, letting it fall in his face. We walked up to the person and as we got closer I could see it was a black woman with a gold necklace with the letter A on it.
I gasped and stood up. Her eyebrows furrowed and looked up at me.
"Mikes what's wrong?"
"Nothing."I said. I backed up, walking into a wall.
"Mikey, you good?"Gee said. Valentina stood up and walked towards me. I ran upstairs and into our bedroom, Valentina followed me,
"Why didn't you tell me?"
"Tell you what?"I gestured to her necklace and she held it.
"Oh Mikes, I should of told you. I'm sorry."
"If we don't have trust, what will we do?"
"I-Mikey I, I couldn't find the right time to do it and-oh god Mikey don't hate me."She started hyperventilating and I sat down on the bed, putting her on my lap, she gripped the back of my shirt as I stroked her hair, which seemed to calm her down, as she stopped gripping my shirt.
"Hey, look, look, can you find three things you can see, feel, and hear?"
"Um, y-your shirt, h-hands, and, oh god Mikey make them stop!"She said into my chest. I wrapped my free arm around her and she started hyperventilating again.
"I-I-I can hear you, the TV, and-and the uh, the birds."I smiled at her.
"Good! Now I just need you to look at me and breathe."Valentina picked up her head and wrapped her arms around my neck.
"Hey, I'm here. Okay?"
"There is."
"Hmm?"
"There is something else."I hugged her tighter.
"What is it baby?"
"I, um...I go to a place. That place is a bar-"
"You drink?!"
"Theres more."She took a deep breath.
"Ronnie's. Ronnie was an illegal bar that I worked in. The bakery was a shitty lie. I'm a bartender there. I saw Gerard there once but he didn't notice me. Too drunk, and I had makeup on."
"Val-"
"I'm not done. I get paid big bucks for that. My parents had financial issues and that made me work harder. I started working 5 nights a week, then Ronnie gave me an idea. Drug Dealing. I had already done drugs so why not?"She whistled a sigh and held my hand. With her other hand she reached down and pulled a necklace out of her bra. A necklace with an A on it.
"By then I had been making about 3,500 a week. It was all fun and games until I started getting panic attacks. Ashley was always there to help me though. Soon Spike came along."
"Val-"
"Spike was Ashleys brother. My parents never liked Spike. He bought drugs from me, and sold me drugs I didn't have. I got so used to this routine until he OD'd. Then I started finding his drugs everywhere. Lots of them. I used them all, all of them I could find. Until I met you. sometimes I still do drugs. Occasionally. Hence the panic attacks. I always keep my drugs in my brown bag, thats why i always have it on me."I hugged her so tight I thought all her bones would break.
"Oh Val."Thats all I could say. We stayed like that for a few minutes until I pulled back. She smiled in a sort of happy way.
"I'm going to sleep."She said, grinning.
"Okay, go ahead."
"Thanks Mikey."
"No, thank you, Val."I said and walked out of the room, going downstairs.
I sat down on the couch next to Gee and watched the VCR. Signal sucks down here. I wasn't watching anyways, I was too busy thinking about everything Val had said earlier.
Why Valentina, Why?
