Walking With You

♡ Why Am I. . .? ♡

Sometimes I look at Christians around me and I think Why did I choose to associate myself with these people? It's then I remind myself that I didn't become a Christian to be like all the other ones, I did it to follow Jesus. I did it not because I thought I'd be cool or like everyone else around me, I did it because it actually means something to me.

I remember the second time I ever went to church; I saw people around me worshiping and praying and I thought, I couldn't be one of them! I honestly thought that I would never be able to do it.

I guess I was proved wrong.

Guys, I wasn't taught to believe from childhood, I started to believe.

I didn't do it because of peer pressure, I decided to become one.

I made that choice to follow God, I wasn't forced to do it.

Furthermore, I definitely did not do it because I wanted to go to Heaven/get out of Hell. I guess you could say God brought me out of the hell I'd made, but I'd be okay if God said I couldn't stay with Him or couldn't exist anymore. It doesn't scare me because I know He's sovereign, in control, and has His plans, and I can't change His mind.

One of the first reasons an atheist throws at me when attempting to explain why I believe (they're absolutely certain of it too) is that I really want to live on after this life. I guess I must be really different, because I'm totally fine with the time I have now. I'd rather use this life to serve God the best I can than expect Heaven and not care.

I mean, what if I get there and I can't enter because I had just fallen away from Him or some other reason? I would have to be okay with that possiblity.

So I'm gonna continue walking with God best I can. The truth is I'm not perfect either. I mess up, I do things Christians probably shouldn't, and I'm definitely not afraid to admit that. I don't know everything about God, and that means I can't just tell you how He going to think of you or judge you. I just can't speak for God unless He reveals something to me. Even then, I may not be aware that what I'm saying or doing at that moment is God speaking through me.

But isn't there a wonderful joy in knowing He's been on the move in mine or someone's life.

Blessings!

The song above is a new favorite of mine. Enjoy! =D

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This part is dedicated to arbevmo, a winner of my contest Summer Breeze Contest! 2016! Be sure to check out his entry, Half a Day Away, and other fabulous works by him here on Wattpad!