A Series of Firsts (A Matthew Gray Gubler FanFiction)

The First Regret

She shuffled down the sidewalk. She wasn't sure where she was going, but she had to get away. She wasn't paying attention to where she was walking and nearly ran into a group of paparazzi staking out the party. An idea popped into her head and the anger that had invaded her body, clouded her judgement. She approached them, not giving a damn about the consequences that would occur with what she was about to say.

"Miss, miss...Miss Norwood, over here," Alex moved in the direction of the man calling her name. "Where's Matthew? Is it true that he invited another girl to the party? Are the two of you still together?"

"Look, I will give you a statement but my name and my picture will not be associated, got it?" Alex glared at the man, anger was seething inside of her, but she wasn't angry enough to not protect her reputation.

The man nodded, "You will go on the record as anonymous you have my word."

"I better have your word or you'll be hearing from my lawyer." Alex watched as the man nodded, putting away his camera and pulling out his phone to record their conversation. "First off, yes he invited another woman. The same woman he's been sleeping with while his girlfriend was on the other side of the country working."

"So Matthew Gubler was cheating on you...I mean Alex Norwood the whole time she was gone?"

Alex nodded, "Yes, and it's very possible that it started before she even left. There was some very shady behavior displayed months prior to her being gone."

"I always thought that Mr. Gubler was one of the good guys."

"Ha," Alex blurted out, "One of the good guys," She spat vehemently, "You shouldn't let his façade fool you. That's what he wants everyone to think but really, really he's a playboy and one that preys on younger women. He likes them young due to this own childish behavior and he knows that any mature woman would want nothing to do with his immatureness."

As the words were spilling from her mouth, Alex felt her heart shattering into thousands of pieces. Every word was a lie. Every word could possibly destroy him but the damage had been done and there was nothing she could do but keep going.

Tears were spilling down Alex's cheeks and she could no longer focus on Matthew's face. "I am so sorry."

She felt his hand envelope hers and the simple act of kindness only made the tears fall faster, harder.

"Alex, don't cry," Matthew brushed his thumb across the top of her hand, slowly. "Look, what's done is done and you apologized for it already. I guess I just never realized I made you that mad, that I upset you that much."

Alex tried to blink the tears away, "I never should have gotten that upset."

"So you're saying that he isn't the awkward, loveable geek that we've all grown to love on Criminal Minds?" The guy was phishing and Alex knew it but she took the bait anyway.

"It's called acting dude and he's pretty damn good at it. He is nothing like Spencer Reid."

"Is there anything else you'd like to add," He pushed the phone closer to her face.

"I would just like to add that he is spineless. He couldn't just tell his girlfriend of several years that he wanted out of the relationship. He couldn't man up and do the right thing, no; he had to be a fucking asshole. I'm done," With that Alex spun on her heel and took off in the opposite direction. The only thing on her mind, grabbing her things from Matthew's house and getting as far away from him as possible before what she'd just said hit the press.