I skipped a meal.
I was in a dark place, involuntarily thinking dark thoughts, and reached the seafloor of the dark abyss, opening a door to my mind which I did not know existed.
I skipped a meal, because it was my fault.
Because I was made to believe that I, a fifteen-year-old girl, was responsible for something so significant and beyond my control. I could not wrap my head around that fact that the cause was unknown.
I love my brother, dislocated knee and all, but while he was getting "battle scars", apparently I was getting "stretch marks".
I skipped a meal, because I was told to "eat less".
What weight am I supposed to lose when I am only a hundred and ten pounds at best?
I skipped a meal to prove a point.
I skipped a meal to prove to my father that while he was encouraging his son, he was discouraging his daughter.
I skipped a meal, because I was told I was "stupid".
Despite how many ninety's I brought home, I could not rid myself of that undiluted remark.
I skipped a meal and I am not proud of it.
Because when I refused to eat in order to hurt to hurt him, the only person I was hurting was me.
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