Diary Of A Fangirl [ON HIATUS]

Chapter 12: Permission

I didn't give him an answer. Yet.

He'd said, "Don't worry. I'm not rushing you. I can wait until you're ready."

He probably sensed that I'm still confused, and I thank him for understanding. It was so sweet and thoughtful of him!

If I were some other girl, I'd jump into the opportunity right away. However, I'm not that type of person. I still need to think about this, and assess my feelings for him. I want to make sure that when the time comes that he'll ask me what my answer is, I'd be able to give him the right one.

Am I just overwhelmed that a famous celebrity has just declared he has feelings for me? Or do I really like him for him, celebrity or not? Am I even ready to get on this ship with him? These are the things that I need to figure out as early as now.

This is so hard!

It's my first time to feel something for someone, and I'm already having a hard time! Is love really this complicated? Or it became this complicated because it involves a famous celebrity, and not a normal person?

After his confession, we talked about other things. He probably figured I'd be uncomfortable talking about, and digging deep into this "relationship." So, we talked about stuff like how my life was when I was still in the States.

"I was bullied," I'd said. "Because I look different. But Carly and Trixie saved me from those bullies. They became my best friends."

He'd told me that I was headstrong and brave, that's why he couldn't believe that I was bullied before. We laughed about it, too.

I'd told him that I still keep in touch with my two American buddies, and that we're very much updated about the lives of one another.

I also told him about my Dad, how great a father he was when he was still alive. I was pretty close with him. He was my best friend. I had much to tell Andrew about Dad, but I didn't want to shed some tears. I'll look like an idiot!

Meanwhile, Andrew talked about his sister, how spirited she could be sometimes. However, I could see by the way he talks about her, that he adores Haley so much. I guess that's how a brother-sister relationship works. He didn't talk much about his Mom or his Dad, though. Of course, I totally understand that it was a rough time for them when their Dad left them.

Anyway, our curfew was ten. When we checked the time, it was already nine in the evening. So we went downstairs to get Julia, so we could go home.

"Hey, guys!" Andrew greeted Mark and the gang.

"Dude! Where were you?" Mark asked.

"Yeah." Michelle agreed. "Where have you two been?" She added while wiggling her eyebrows, as if she knew what went on between the two of us when we disappeared. Heat crept up my face because of what Michelle said.

"We just talked." Andrew said while scratching the back of his neck again.

Oh, Andrew! He's being shy again.

"You guys just talked?" Julia asked. There goes that mouth again!

"Yeah, Juls." I said. "We just talked."

"And as much as we'd love to stay, we really need to go." Andrew added. "I promised I'd bring them home by ten."

"Can't you guys stay a little longer?" Haley was asking Julia and I.