Long Gone

Prologue..

Hello.... I'm.... not-good-enough, freak, worthless, bitch, ugly, attention-whore, alone, nameless, mistake, forgotten, waste-of-time. You can simply call me Nat. I am the BAD GIRL of SEVEN NORTH HIGH SCHOOL. I'm 5'8 and a brunette trying to survive through life.

Life is a cruel place and you can't escape it alive. But it's your decision on how much longer you want to live it, most of the times. As for me, I don't know what shit 'destiny' has got for me but I have a few assumptions.

My life has always been pure shit. Everyone I start to love leaves me. Since childhood I have been betrayed in friendships and now when I've grown up a bit and finally decide to trust someone, they hurt me yet again. For the first time in my life I love someone and he can't even stand me anymore. My parents regret that I'm their daughter. I have no one and nothing with me.

I'm done hurting. I'm done punishing myself for the mistakes people made. I'm done living this life. Don't worry I can't kill myself because I'm already dead. I feel like I'm dead but breathing. I'm just a crumpled up piece of paper lying here. I'm numb and don't feel anything anymore. Happiness, Excitement, Enjoyment, Wretchedness, Sadness are unknown to me.

But I wasn't always like this. Believe it or not but I used to be a sweet little girl who couldn't even hurt a fly not long before. I couldn't hurt people even if they treated me like shit. That was the reason I was treated like shit. Nobody cared about me and bossed me around. I was a pathetic weak girl who wouldn't get even if someone hit her. Never in a million years would I think of killing myself.

Although I had a temper, a big one I might add and I have a bigger one now. I was NOBODY, replaceable, unloved, and fragile. Now, I'm the biggest BITCH, irreplaceable, and strong. Nobody dares to come near me, talk to me or even talk about me.

Everything changed after the only person I trusted; the one person I loved betrayed me, started hating me and didn't believe me. Everything started to fall apart. Yet, I was holding on. I tried so hard that it made me the Natalya I am today.

The cruel girl. I don't care about anyone anymore. I am not sweet. I am your biggest nightmare. I have no friends, my family hates me, my mother is a cheating drunk bitch, my father is a workaholic and abusive and my sister is a bully. My life is not exactly on the right path. I self-harm, I drink and have one night stands. I have multiple tattoos and am in a gang. I barely smile and hurt people.

I no longer give a shit about anyone. All I want is revenge, a word I would've never thought of before. I would never hurt someone the way they hurt me because I don't want them to feel what I feel. Right now all I could think about was how do I get back at them and I had a perfect plan.

I will destroy them. I will make them realize what happens when people hurt and that is the reason I became Natalya, the bad girl....

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Hello people. So if anyone is reading this book or was reading this book. I'm sorry i took it down but i honestly wasn't content with the content I wrote. So I'm kinda re writing the whole book and it will be improved.

I kinda have a lot of time on my hands since I completed 10th grade which is kinda a big deal in my country so... wohoooo.

Well, Hope you enjoy the new chapters... message me if you think i should change anything or just put the last book back.

Vote and comment. Don't be a silent reader.

-N-