Long Gone

12. Bitter Truth

I lay on my bed as everyone is outside. Playing Truth and Dare. They know better than to come here right now and Kate is probably pissed. Honestly, I've stopped caring. I know that it doesn't sound good but I've had enough. It has always been like this. When I used to be my pathetic old self, I remember how they used to treat me and that was the reason I shut them down too.

Whenever I used to say something they would tell me to either shut up or they would ask my why do I even speak. It hurt me. They were allowed to be pissed but whenever I tried to be angry they would make fun of me. Jess used to tell them to stop sometimes but then she would do the same thing. Every time I was hurt, I covered it up or I pushed it off. Even today they are the same and I'm done with them.

I snapped out of my thoughts when I saw Harry come in. He sat beside me on the bed and silently opened the drawer of the bedside table. Before I could stop him he had already opened it and seen what was inside it. The damage was already done.

He held the book up and waved in front of his face with amusement in his eyes. I tried to hide the redness trying to get to my cheeks.

"50 Shades, eh?" He raised an eyebrow. "It's the 3rd novel, isn't it?" He asked and I slowly nodded.

"Give it back" I tell him sternly.

"It means you must've read the previous ones" He asked ignoring my question.

"I said give it back" I repeated.

"Try me" He said and I jumped on him, trying to tackle him but not so surprisingly he was tall enough and strong enough that he held the both of us. I jumped and kicked but his hold was too tight and the way he held me was too tight as it didn't let me kick his shin. I was struggling as he watched me and laughed.

"Fine take it." He said raising his hands after handing me the book. "Hope you enjoy your porn" He teased. I groaned but then I remembered that he also had an awkward moment with me a few hours ago. I smiled to myself. The evil smile that appeared on my face made Harry worried.

You should be worried.

Realization hit him and his face turned red with embarrassment but he covered it up in a second.

"I'll keep it a secret if you will" He tried to make a deal. I really don't want people to find out so I just nodded and kept the book under my pillow. He smirked and walked to the closet. Before disappearing in there he turned.

"I have the movie of the second part with the parts that were supposed to be deleted. It's in my phone, take it if you want" He disappeared. After a minute of thinking I took his phone and transferred it in my phone. I had kept it back before he came back in only his boxers.

Why was he in the closet then?

He plops down beside me and turns the TV on and starts watching the 100. I watch it but I really want to read and I don't think Harry would mind. Since he already knows some of my secrets, I decide to read on my nook instead of going to Al's room to get my books.

I don't want to have a book shelf in my room and Al has coved it up in his room pretty much. The book shelf will probably throw off the whole 'Bad Girl' look. I grabbed the nook and my reading glasses. Harry looked at me sideways and I shot him a warning glare. He just looked away and smiled to himself. I opened the last book I was reading and continued.

Tears filled my eyes as Tessa got to know that all Harry (Styles) did was a bet and left him. He shouted that he loved her.

Yes, I am reading After.

I closed it when the book ended remembering that the second book is in there and I have to read it. I took off the glasses and stretched and sensed Harry do the same.

"You like reading?" He questioned and I nodded.

"You?" I asked while going into the closet and removing my clothes as I wore Al's shirt. Harry's head popped at the door.

"Nope" He said popping the 'p'

"I hope you don't mind me walking around like this. It's just too comfortable and even if I wear shorts with it they would be equal to nothing." Of course he doesn't mind.

"Nah, it's fine" He says and turns the TV off before sitting cross legged on the bed I join him. "Let's play 21 questions"

"Fuck Boy" I muttered under my breath but it would be nice to have someone besides Al.

And he is hot!

You never know when to shut up do you?

"What is your favourite thing in the world?" He asks.

"Al" I answer.

"But he is not a thing so FOOD" I add. "Yours?"

"Porn" He smirks and I roll my eyes. Of course it is.

"What is your full name?"

"Nikkei Marie Richards" I mumble. He tries to suppress his laughter.

"That name doesn't suit you at all" He snorts and I roll my eyes. I've been doing that a lot these days. I motion him to go on.

"Harry Edward Alden" I raise an eyebrow. It's his chance to roll his eyes.

"Okay, So when was the last time you had sex?"

"The day I met you I guess, You?" I completely forgot about that guy. Maybe I should call him.

"Same" he says.

"Who was your first love?"

"It was...... It was HIM, um" I motion to my phone. He picks it up and unlocks the screen. Realization hits him.

"That explains the urge you have to kill him" He gives me back my phone.

"My first love was my best friend. Her name was Molly" he answers looking at his hands.

"Oh....was?" I ask him.

"Yea, she died 2 years 1 month and 2 days ago" he replies "So, let's continue the game" He rubs his hands together. He probably doesn't want to talk about it.

"Okay, Ask" I reply

"Who took your virginity?" he asks me and my breath knocks out of my body. I freeze. I have no idea what to tell him. I can't just tell him about mike. He waves his hands in front of my face.

"This game is stupid and I'm bored of it. Let's continue tomorrow. Good Night" I say quickly and pull the comforter over me and pretend to sleep.

He has no idea, no will he ever know anything.

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I've been trying to write but with my assignments and studies i haven't been able to write. I'm sorry if the chapters are shitty. Don't be a silent reader....
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