What Do You Mean?

Chapter 7

"You're gonna get dizzy baby girl." I say as I sit on the floor while Lyric runs circles around me.

"Me no ditty mama" She giggles.

I grab her by the waist ,pull her into my lap and nuzzle into her shoulder while tickling her. "You're gonna fall and if you hurt yourself I'll cry." I say pretending to cry.

She giggles wildly and kicks her feet while trying to squirm out of my lap. She never ever sits still. I wonder how early it will be when she's diagnosed with ADHD just like her daddy. "You play babies with me mommy?"

I start to stand. "Of course I will sweet pea. We just gotta find em first" She claps her tiny hands together excitedly . "Like a tweasure hunt mama?"  I reach for her hand. "Exactly like a treasure hunt."

We arrived in Seattle late last night via the tour bus. It wasn't too bad actually. We will be here for the next few days before the first show so that Justin can do a couple of run throughs to get all the kinks out. I don't know how it happened but fans were already lined up outside our hotel first thing this morning. Justin's fans are the best detectives around. It's kinda scary sometimes. Lyric was terrified when she heard them screaming her name.

I'm pulling her baby dolls out of a suitcase when Betty pads into the living area of our suite. This is definitely one of my favorite hotels we've been in. It's essentially an apartment equipped with 3 bedrooms, living room and full kitchen. If every hotel was like this, tour would be a lot easier.

"Hey guys, whatcha doin?" She sits down on the floor beside Lyric and crosses her legs like a pretzel. "Me and mommy play babies...you play too?" Lyric asks. It's so cute when she asks a question, her little voice goes up about five octaves.

She runs her fingers through Lyrics whispy, baby fine hair. "You know it girl. Where's baby Betty?" Betty asks referring to Lyrics baby doll she named after her. " you know baby Betty is my favorite right sweet girl?"

Lyric holds her doll to her chest. " okaaaay but she my favowite too. I let you pay with her ok?" She says seriously.

Betty and I look at each other and try to stifle our laughs. Lyric tries to sound so grown up and bossy sometimes and it just comes out sounding like the cutest thing ever. If we laugh at her though, she gets very upset then usually here comes a tantrum.

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A few hours later Lyric is snuggled up on the couch with her favorite blanket and baby Betty watching a Disney movie.  Betty and I are watching her from the breakfast bar in the kitchen before I leave for the venue. " I love that Maxi dress B, it looks so cute and comfortable....you gotta let me borrow that sometime please!"

I nudge her with my shoulder. "Of course I will. You can borrow whatever you want you know that."

"So what was the deal with J this morning? He seemed pissed. I just worry about you guys, everything has just been...." She stops not knowing exactly what to say while picking at a bowl of fruit awkwardly.

I reach into my purse for my bottle of pills, shake two into my palm and shrug. "Eh just everything. Scooter has been on his shit, plus he's under a lot of pressure with this tour." Swallowing both pills down I continue on. " Then there's all that shit with Dan and Scrappy. It's just a mess." I sigh "Not the best way to start a tour."

She nods and pops a grape into her mouth.

" What happened there exactly anyway, if you don't mind me asking.."

  I pull on my denim jacket. " Dan tried talking to Justin about me losing the baby." We both put our heads down avoiding eye contact because just mentioning the baby still upsets me a lot  " He was just trying to console him by saying sometimes things happen for a reason and well Justin lost his shit."