Dream Lie |Vkook|

11. Love is not over

15 & 17
Jungkook's P.O.V.

Time flied away. It's been already a year since I fond the paper, the day I fond out the truth.
Tae and I continued living our lives like it never happened.
I tried to cut off the lies but things didn't work out. I was lying everyday. For example, "Hi, my name is Hwan."

Everyone called me Kookie instead. It was closer to my real name.

But where am I going? Lying every single day, smiling trough the day, acting like I'm okay.
Maybe I should be an actor.

Dreams... I didn't have any.
I love to draw and create music, but dad and mom says it's a worthless dream. "Don't put effort in things you're not sure you will be doing forever".
The idea of doing what I love forever fascinated me. I wish I had the hope and will to do it.

Sadly, noting last forever. And definitely not this lying pattern. I didn't want to live like this. But I had no choice.
I want to break the pattern so bad, but how?

"Hey Kookie. Clean your side, we're going to have guests." Tae started to do his bed.

That's it. I'm not having it anymore.

"I'm sick of this!" I created chaos instead.

"Hwan calm down!" He tried to comfort me. Taehyung stopped doing what he was doing and hugged me. I couldn't hold my anger, it all was just too much.
I tried to get out of his grip, but he was too strong.

"Come on. Let's get some yogurt for you."

"You know I don't like that."

"Yes you do. Since you were a kid."

"Umm... No."

"Okay. But should we go outside and play ball?"

"Soccer?"

"The other one."

"You know I only like to play football."

"But you used to love to play ball. What happened?"

"Tae..."

"I'm not your little brother." I sighed.

"Maybe we don't have the same surname, but I was the one taking care of you."

"You don't know the whole truth."

"Tell me something I don't know." He said sarcastically.

He thought he knew. But he had no clue.

"Taehuyng. I'm sorry I have to tell you this... Your real little brother got run over."

He froze. Time stopped. Those words, I didn't want to say them. But I had to. I didn't want to lie anymore.

"What are you saying?"

"I think it's time to let you know."

"Is this one of these weird stories you randomly come up with?"

"No, I'm telling you truth."

"But how can you know?!" He raised his voice. He was shocked and devastated. Can't blame him, what would I do in this situation?

"I've overheard."

Flashback

"It's been 14 years now." Mom sighed. I went to the toilet and on my way back I heard dad and mom talking in the kitchen about me and Tae.
"14 years since our little Hwan left this world. I should've watched out."