4 weeks and five days
Dear Simon,
I've started talking to Josh the last couple of days. We sit on the sofa in the evening. Watch t.v, chat about the shit in our heads, let everything go. It's not so bad. I guess he's cut down on the videos recently.
I'm adjusting to it. Talking, listening, if it's Josh or just the telly, eating, if it's a ready made Tesco's or a proper meal.
When I sit with Josh, it just feels like there's something missing. In me, in the room, in the house. I try not to cry, Josh tells me not to, but I do, everyday. I talk to you in my head, I try to reach out as far as I can to you. But when I realize I can't, there's an emptiness that hangs over me.
I haven't heard from JJ or any of the rest of the guys. I guess it's just my fault. They probably tried to contact me. I'll talk to them soon. I'm happy with just Josh and I for now.
Just by sitting in the living room, so many memories flood back. Good ones, happy ones, Ministar moments. Sidemen moments.
Remember the pillow fight? How we were meant to film a fifa video, but ended up in a total mess. That actually turned out to be a better video than what was planned.
A big curve formed on my face as memories raced into my mind.
I'm thinking about getting back to the Youtube grind.
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Dear Simon // Ministar FF
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