Yowzah Song oneshot

Lifeline

River P.O.V

I like sneaking in the TARDIS just to surprise the Doctor. But this time I came to see the Doctor because I just left Manhattan, for him it has bean years but it was only a month ago for me and that month was me watching over him. This time he is taking a while to come back. Every time this happens I simply go in my room and wait for him to come back. Normally I listen to music, all sort of music, it depends on my mood. I don't bother putting on my head phones on, I simply put on the speaker. I just feel like screaming and drowning in my tears.

The Doctor P.O.V

"Well they were strange! I have seen many thing but that was something else." I said a loud walking back in the TARDIS. I walk up to the console. "So what do you say sexy? Wanna see Clara or are you still angry at her?"

The TARDIS groaned.

"Come on old girl she isn't that mean. Give her a second chance!"

I hear a strange noise coming from one of the corridors. I start walking in its direction. It almost seams like words. "Do we have company?" I walk down a few corridors before I can recognize the voice. I never heard my wife singing before. She has a lovely voice. There is nothing she can't do! The voice seams very close but I can't seam to find where it's coming from. The further I walk the louder it sound and until it sounds like she is screaming. I can hear her. She is on the other side of the door. Her voice suddenly stop. I put my hand on the handle, and I hear the most beautiful noise in the universe. Her words are calm but full of emotion.  

"Is there anybody out there?" Her voice is trembling.

I take my hand off the handle and put it on the door. I pull my ear closer to hear every word she says
"Can you pull me from this ocean of despair?" Her breathing is so heavy I can hear it thru the door.

"I'm drowning in the pain" I know these words aren't her own but it breaks my heart to hear her say this.

"Breaking down again" 

"River" I whisper.

"Looking for a lifeline"

"But I'm here for you River" I feel a tear rolling down my cheek.

Silence

I hear her turn off her music which left the TARDIS in complete silence. The silence wasn't silence at all. It was full of tears and sadness. What would she think if I walked in right now? She always hides the damage from me but now she is crying and I can be her husband, take care of her like I'm supped to. But does she want that? I smile a little. "You have built you walls so high I'm not sure what you want." I whisper slowly. Her crying doesn't slow down, it only grows louder. Her tears seem heavy and full of pain. I close my eyes to block it out but it's all I can hear. My wife breaking down.

River P.O.V

For a second I feel like every thing stopped as the beat of the song stopped. I can finely catch my breath. But I can hear the music coming back again.

" Is there anybody out there?" I continue sing the words. I'm so calm it feels unreal.Anyone? Anywhere? Can some one hear me? Hear my pain?

"Can you pull me from this ocean of despair?"  Soon the tears start flowing down my face. It's magic how words can mean so much.

"I'm drowning in the pain" I close my eyes all I can think about is the Doctor and my parents.

"Breaking down again" I wish these word would be a lie.

"Looking for a lifeline" Only if I could let the Doctor know how I feel right now but i know i can't. He can't fix this. He can't fix me. But he can't make it worse. I'm sitting on my bed and by reflex I stop my music. I know it will only make me think about it more. I pull my head in my knees to hid my face. Who am I hiding from? The TARDIS is so silent I can hear the echo of my tears. Doctor. All I can think about is the Doctor. That wonderful man. What would he think if he saw me like this? Would he think I'm weak? I love that man so mush. "Doctor" I uttered unknowingly in my tears.

The Doctor P.O.V

"Doctor"

I open my eyes at the surprise of what I just heard. Did she just call for me? I don't even think about it and open the door. I see River on the bed crying in her knees. She is in the same cloths as when she was taking care of me after Manhattan. She doesn't know I'm here. I sit besides her on the bed and pull her into my arms. I hold her tightly. I don't want her to push me away but she puts her arms around me only to hide her face in my chest. All of her curls go in my face but she is the one that needs comfort not me. 

3th person P.O.V

"Doctor" River says as she holds the Doctor's jacket tightly.

"I'm here sweetie" he gently strokes her golden curls. 

"Don't leave me" River cry's out. " I'm sorry I can't be strong...I...I'm sorry"

"I'm here  for you River you don't have to be strong. I can be strong for the both of us."