Chapter 9: Disappear
HARRY'S POV
The car ride was silent.
Andie was silent.
I was pretty surprise when I saw the wound on her hand. I know she is feisty and all but I never picture her out punching a wall. I mean I saw her punched some guys before but a wall?
She must be upset over something to make her do that. I took a glimpse of her. She was just staring outside. There was a hint of sadness in her eyes. I miss her snide comments about me. Or how she would say she doesn't want to be near me.
She look.. lifeless.
I want to hold her or something but I'm afraid she might get mad or hate me.
Ugh! Well, here goes nothing.
I slowly held her hand. She immediately looked at me but I just looked straight. Her gaze fell to her hands. I thought she would let go or yell at me but she didn't. Something is really bothering her. She's letting me hold her hand. I started to draw circles on her hand using my thumb.
"Are you not happy to go to dinner with me?" I joked.
"No. I'm okay with it." She replied without looking at me. I was expecting her to say something sassy but nothing. I heard her sigh. I want to ask her what's wrong but maybe I'll be crossing the line. I'm already lucky she agreed to have dinner with me.
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Dinner was quite silent as well. We only talk for a few times. It was different during our lunch date. She would usually talk, laugh and comment.
"Do you want to go there?"
"Where?" She looked around and I pointed to a place that looks like a park. She nodded and we walked going there.
We sat down on a bench. There were also people here, mostly couples. They're doing all lovey dovey stuff. I glanced at Andie. She was looking up the sky. She then close her eyes and exhaled.
The wind was slowly blowing her long black hair. The light from the streetlamp illuminates her face. She now look peaceful. She is really a pretty sight. She opened her eyes and smile.
"It's so beautiful."
"Yes, you are." I blurted out. She turned her gaze at me. Oh shit! Her eyes were examining me. It's quite uncomfortable I must say.
I coughed. "I mean, yeah! This PLACE is beautiful." I shifted my gaze to a tree. I just made my self look stupid in front of her. I mentally face palmed myself.
Why do I have to say it out loud? I could just whispered it or better yet kept it to myself.
Then she laughed.
She laughed?
I made her laugh.
I looked at her and chuckled.
"I'm sorry! I shouldn't be laughing but that was quite hilarious. You should have seen your face." She continued laughing, wiping the tears in her eyes. Happy tears I hope.
"It's good to see you laugh again. I love the sound of your laughter." I scratched the back of my neck.
"Awe! You're blushing." She teased. I stuck my tongue out. I'm glad I made her laugh. She looks much better when she's happy.
"I'm sorry if I'm being moody. I just.. There's a lot of things I've been thinking about." She played with her fingers. I scooted closer. She smiled and moved away. I moved again and she moved away again. She was clearly playing with me. I did the same and she repeated her actions until she hit the arm rest. I smirked.
"Nowhere to go?"
She stuck her tongue out. "I could always get up and go."
"But I know you won't."
"Shut up Styles!" Looks like I've won. I scooted closer to her. Closing the small gap between us. I pretend to stretch my arm and placed it at the back of her shoulder. She gave me a 'really' look. I shrugged and she giggled.
Then silence again. It was a comforting kind of silence tho.
"I want to be a star."
"Uhh well, do you know how to act or something?" She giggled.
"What?"
"I didn't mean that kind of star, I meant stars stars, you idiot!"
"You called me an idiot?" I pretended to act hurt. I placed my hand on my chest and she laughed. I pinched her nose and she swatted my hand away.
"Why do you want to be star?"
She played with the hem of her shirt. "I just want to be out of here. I want to be free."
"But you're free." I raised my eyebrow. She shook her head sideways.
"I don't want to live in here anymore. You know.. I want to go to places that no one knows me. I want to just snap my fingers and be gone or something. I don't like it in here. I bet it's better up there."
What is she talking about? I don't get it.
"I've always got this urge to run away but I know they're gonna find me anyway. They always do."
"Who are they?"
"Life. Sadness. Problems. All that make things fucked up." She reached for her hand and grabbed some of my hair.
"Aren't you tired with your life? Paps are always there watching you. You always have to act and look perfect. Isn't that tiring?"
I sighed. "Yes, sometimes I feel like it's too much. Everybody is expecting much from me and I'm afraid that I might disappoint them. I'm afraid I can't give them what they want.. I" I paused. Her face was inches from mine. She had a smile on her face as she kept playing with my hair.
"Uhm.. I-I'm sorry! I didn't mean to.. Uhhh!" She moved her hand away when she caught me staring at her. She's so cute when she's all flustered.
"Can I stay with you for the night?" She exclaimed.
What?
End of Chapter.
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