The Billionaire's Trap

Chapter 19

Sophia pov

After changing my clothes and drying myself up I took my wet clothes and placed them in the washing machine. Theo had given me a room saying that I could stay the night here and if I needed anything else all I had to do was call for him since he was in the adjacent room.

Getting dressed in my pjs I took a few bites from the dinner tray he had set for me. I didn't want to have dinner with them so I said I was not hungry, still he left me some because he knew I hadn't had any dinner.

Turning and tossing around in bed thinking about all that he had said to me, all that I had said to him, the facts the dreams, the desires, the hurt, the pain, and the complications just exhausted me I didn't even realize when I drifted into sleep...

That same night, that same horrible night being r*ped repeatedly by those bastards was being played out in front of me. I was having an out of body experience only allowed in dreams or nightmares...

Later I was at the clinic where the doctor had given me the news that I would never ever be able to carry my own children but soon after I was in a hospital room and all around me I could hear loud screams. Women screaming and crying in pain. We were all pregnant and in labor. But I was the only one who couldn't scream even though the pain was unbearable. All I could do was allow my tears to roll down my cheeks.
Suddenly each woman was given a baby wrapped in a blue or pink blanket. I was the only one who wasn't given anything.

"Where is my baby" I asked in a hoarse voice but the doctor looked sadly at me and shook her head. I saw Theo come in looking with sadness in his eyes.
"Theo, Theo please tell them to give me my child" I frantically begged him. He sat beside me on the bed shaking his head.
"It was a stillborn again"
My world crashed in front of me.
Happiness was not something written for me. With those thoughts I started to scream and shout hitting him hard on his chest as if that would take away the pain.
"Give me my baby" I wept as I clung to his shirt.

Waking up from my nightmare sweating and breathing hard I Thanked God I didn't scream because that would have been really embarrassing.
Gut wrenching sobs started to wrack my body. As much as I hated being so vulnerable I knew I needed him but at the same time I knew I had no right to need him. He made it clear he didn't want anything with me. As hard as it was to admit to myself but the truth was crystal clear

He left me...
Because he didn't want a broken girl...

But right now I didn't want to feel this emptiness all I wanted was to erase it anyway possible even if it meant putting my pride aside.

My legs had a mind of their own as if I was in some kind of a trance. Reaching his room I found the door slightly ajar. Entering it silently I just stood by the door not having the courage to move in or do anything anymore.

Suddenly the lights were turned on and he was sitting in his bed.

"You ok"?

I shook my head furiously

"I keep dreaming of what happened to me and how it ruined everything for me" I said between sobs he was instantly beside me

"Let's get you in bed you look tired" he was rubbing my shoulders gently.

"Why does it hurt here" I fisted my shirt near my chest.

"Shhh... it will all be alright. Just give yourself time" he soothed me by now he was rubbing my back as well.

"Don't You Get It? I'll Never Be Ok. I'll Never Be Whole Again. I'll Never Have What I Want" I confessed looking him in his eyes with tears rolling down my cheeks.