I don't know how it happened but here we are in the middle of the beach in the Bahamas, Gumball said he needed to talk to me he sounded like it was so urgent.
I stood watching him floating lightly in the air as I was in my usual white dress as Gumball also in his usual outfit. Standing so close to him I call see how tall he has gotten. He stood nearly 6 feet tall. I still recall us in middle school he was so small and adorable back then. Now he is very tall and handsome.
My gaze never leaves his as the waves crash against the sandy beaches.
"What did you want to talk about Gumball?" I say floating over to him, close to him closer then I have ever been. I couldn't take it all these built up emotions were almost on the verge of blasting out of my chest, almost like a sci fi horror movie I saw years ago.
"Carrie its... Lately I have been so confused." He sighs in a very defeated way.
I tilt my head those I felt my heart beat a bit fast like I knew what eh was going to say, maybe I knew what he was getting at or maybe I was praying so hard that this was the talk that we needed to say to each other for so long. "What is confusing you?"
"Only a month ago i was sure i wanted to go into the army, a year ago i was sure I wanted to be with Penny forever, but in this short month... I realize that is not what I want..." He whimpers. Wait is he
Is he crying.
I reach out and slowly take his cheek as I make him look up at me "Gumball why are you crying?"
"Its just... I feel like such a jerk, I change my mind so often lately on what I want that I am not even sure, you have been through so much and I don't want to be a selfish lustful jerk like your uncle... I don't want to be like Earl" I stare shame full on his face as it was obvious this is eating him up inside and he been holding it in for his sake and especially mine. I have been making him hurt internally so long.
It wasn't his fault it is mine.
"Gumball... I am sorry that I make you hurt like..." He cut me off before I could finish.
"But you don't make me hurt, you make me see so happy, when I am with you I feel like I am in heaven. I am finally happy and relax around you." He takes my shoulders and holds me as he makes me stare into his eyes. We lock eyes. "Carrie, your the most amazing girl in the world."
"I am not that amazing..." I couldn't stop myself from looking to the side as I could feel that cold hand of embarrassment return and insecurity.
"But you are, you are beautiful, you have amazing personality, your very smart, caring, fair, your depressive goth attitude is so charming."
"You must be the only man I know who would consider my Gothic attitude charming" I tried to stop my giggle but I couldn't help it.
"But it truly is, especially when you do that little hair flip, it is adorable." I look up at him as he stares down. "and I am just a selfish jerk."
"Gumball what are you talking about."
He sighs defeated "I... I don't know I just feel so... wrong with how I think of you and..."
I took his chin and I make hims tare at me "Gumball Tristopher Watterson, you are anything but you took me a girl you haven't seen in months and allowed me into your life when all you knew I could have been a whore..." I stop him before he could interrupt I needed to say this. "... You were hurt for me, hell put into a small coma and you asked nothing from me... you are not selfish, maybe dumb but not selfish."
I stare at him he had a dumbstruck before he sighs. "That is not fully true"
"Oh?" I ask curious
"I do want something in return..." He down cast
"What do you..." I ask before he looks up quickly taking me by the shoulder and presses me against the wall of a near by stall on the beach.
"I WANT YOU" He cries out as tears run down. "I can't keep it in any longer, your amazing, beautiful and Carrie stop putting yourself down..."
I cut in my face fully red. "Its apart of my charming goth personality."
"... See god you are so funny it is why I love you." He stops eyes widen.
"You... you love me?" My heart stops as I could feel a cold and warm chill shoot up my body as I stare at him. Did he really jut say that? Did I mishear him. My mind grew blank.
"... Yes Carrie I love you so much, I loved you even before I even realized I loved you..." He leans forward drawing nearer and nearer to my face.
I could have phased through the wall and run, I would have phased through him to avoid his lips but... I am tired of running, tired of running from my feelings. I need this. "I love you too Gumball" I lean forward.
Our lips inches apart.
"Carrie I don't want to be confused anymore"
"Gumball I don't want to be in pain anymore"
Our lips meets
"CARRIE WAKE UP YOU WHORE YOUR SHIFT START IN TEN MINUTES."
I bolt out of the bed holding my small Gumball plushie. I look around my room quickly seeing the same old beaten down, dirty plain room that I have been living in for the last 3 months. I have had that stupid dream again. The one with Gumball and him saving me.
Scoff
Gumball and Penny are happily married now, he doesn't need me... he doesn't care.
I get up slowly as I look over seeing my mostly naked uncle getting ready for the day. With a sigh I get into my small stripper outfit. "Time to begin the rest of my life... Alone
