Through It All

Chapter 14

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I turned the knob. I was scared of what I was going to see. Should I even open this door. Okay I'm going to. No I'm not.... Okay I'm going to for sure.

I pushed open the door and I saw Joseph on the bed making out with... Olivia. What even I thought they broke up. Apparently not. Wow and to think he actually liked me. I thought he truly would like me I guess not.

I'm so naive I should've seen that he didn't like me and that he never will. Everyone should've seen it.

I started to tear up. I was gonna tell him I liked him. Spill everything from my heart. Tell him how I truly feel and that I wish he could be mine and how I wish I could be his. But here he is with his ex girlfriend shoving his tongue down her throat. What a fückboy I can't believe him.

"Gee thanks for fücking ditching me just to fück your ex girlfriend!" I shouted trying to hold in my tears. He can't see me crying he'll think I'm weak and I can't have that. I have to act strong. If he thinks I'm weak he'll think he can hurt me at any moment and nope he cant think that. He'll think that I'm afraid of him.

"C-Cheyenne?" he asked in disbelief. "Fück you Joseph!" I shouted at him. I slamed the door and ran down the stairs. I took off my flats cause they have been hurting my feet all night.

I ran out the door trying to make it home. I couldn't handle another minute in there. I feel bad for leaving Kaitlyn but she left me so I guess it's fair. I kept running and running. I wasn't going to stop until I was home.

I can't believe him. I can't believe he would make up a lie just to go make out with his ex girlfriend. He could've just told me he was going to see her. Then maybe it wouldn't hurt. I wouldn't have to witness all of it.

And maybe it hurt more because I like him and thought he would like me back. I thought we would date and be together for a long time but nope. He wants a long time with Olivia.

I ran for like 20 minutes straight I couldn't run anymore. My legs became weak and I ran out of breath. I sat on a bench and cried into my knees. What if I did tell him. What if I spilled all my feelings to him. He would've said he doesn't like me he likes Olivia. I can't believe I almost did something so stupid. I couldn't stop crying I think it's all the stress and how he would just go make out with his girlfriend completely ditching me.

And the worst part is he lead me on. He made me and everyone else think he liked me. I wonder if he lead Olivia on and then they finally got together. I wonder why they got together.

I saw headlights. The window rolled down and the person I wanted to see last was there. Joseph was there. In that car. With Olivia. What in the actual fuck.

He got out of the car and came up to me. "Cheyenne why'd you run away and- a-are you crying?" he asked confused. This little bïtch. "No I'm completely fine now leave me alone and go away." I said wiping my eyes with my head still in my lap so he wouldn't see. I could fool him, saying I wasn't crying and then he'll go away.

"Cheyenne I can tell when your lying now why are you crying? Why did you leave the party? Why did you yell at me?" He asked. Fück this. I got up and started making my way back home again.

"Cheyenne come on tell me." he said jogging up to me. "Oh my gosh Joseph just stop she's not worth your time." Olivia shouted popping her gum in her mouth. "Yea leave me alone go hang out with your girlfriend." I said since he wouldn't stop walking by me.

"She's not my girlfriend." he said. "Really cause that's not what it looked like when your tongue was down her throat!" I yelled stopping in my place. "Jesus Cheyenne why do you even care your acting like you like me!" he yelled back. "WELL MAYBE THAT'S BECAUSE I DO!" I yelled back. I just told him I like him. God dåmn it I knew I would do something I regretted.

I ran so fast. I didn't even know I could run that fast. Olivia got out of the car and ran after him holding him in place. She was saying how I'm not worth it and he doesn't need me to be happy and a bunch of other junk I couldn't hear because I was running duh.

I ran and ran until finally I got home. When I got there Kaitlyn wasn't home yet but to be honest I'm not surprised. She's probably having the time of her life at that party while I'm at home crying over a guy I can't even call my own.

I don't need to cry I need to come up with a plan. Okay um I'll just ignore him. Then he can't bring it up. And plus I'm still mad at him so it'll be easy... Or at least I hope. I can't believe he asked what he did wrong when I yelled to him what he did wrong. Gosh he's such a jerk.

Just one problem I still like him. He's a jerk and he hurt me. But I still like him. A lot. God I hate feelings.

I took of my shoes, changed into some pajamas and layed down. Before I went to sleep I turned on Spotify and plugged my phone in. I started thinking and wondering about things until I finally drifted off to sleep.

|MORNING|
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I woke up even though I didn't want to. I went to the bathroom and started thinking about Joseph again. I have three solid reasons why I'm ignoring him.

1.) I'm mad at him
2.) I don't wanna talk about it and 3.) If I do end up talking to him he'll think I don't like him since I've been ignoring him.

But I Can't cry over him. I just can't. I like him... A lot But I don't want to. I know Joseph didn't mean to hurt me. And I shouldn't even be mad at him because he's not my boyfriend. That's what I'm acting like though.

Ugh what am I doing with my life. I get I like him But I don't know. He probably thinks I'm mad at him because I like him and he was kissing another girl. I mean I am hurt about that but he also just ditched me, his friend to make out with his ex girlfriend. And then he had the nerve to say she's not my girlfriend. Then why were they even making out. That just makes him an even bigger pig.

I heard a knock at the door so I went out of the bathroom. Another knock and another and another. Geez this person needs to chill. I opened the door only to be greeted by...