Letters of the Heart <3

Letter for the Past (A sequel of the letter SWEETEST GOODBYE)

When the word 'Goodbye" came out of your mouth, you just cut my heart into million pieces and carelessly threw it in a trash bin. In short, you killed me. (laughs)

17, 520 hours.. 730 days.. 24 months.. 144 weeks.. 2 years..

Seconds passed.

Minutes passed.

Hours passed.

Days flew away.

People went in and out of my life.

Time just went so fast.

But the pain I felt inside just won't go away.

Well, that was before. That was a long time ago.

How did I come to this point?

Moving on, was never east. Liters of tears were wasted, million why's were never answered and sleepless nights were always constant. Yeah, moving on was really damn hard. But no one said it would be FOREVER.

You left me. I was broken. I was hurt. I was in denial. I was bitter. I was lost. I was angry. I seem to go crazy each day. I was even feeling different and multiple emotions a day.

When you left me, I would just wake up, take a bath, get dressed, eat, go top school, do my school works, go home and sleep. That just became my routine. I was a living zombie. There was no reason to be happy, there was no reason to live.

There were some days where I would just break down with the mere mention of your name. Days where I would cry because our song played. Days where I would sulk in a corner because I acted like a paparazzi again and visited your Facebook profile and saw how happy you are with her. Days where I would cry myself to sleep just because I smelled a perfume just like yours. days where I would cursed myself, for still hurting, for still loving you.

Everyday, I would tell myself "I am okay.. I'll be okay.." like a mantra just to have something to hold on to. Something that would assure me that this pain would go away.

But if your asking me now.. Well, I remember the boy, But I can't remember the feeling anymore. (Is that a song?) *laughs*

When I wrote THE SWEETEST GOODBYE I was just hoping.. Finding things that can help me ease the pain. Things that would make me forget. And surprise! After 2 long years, I am finally over you!

Yes, there will always be a part of me who will smile with our memories. Yes, there will always be a part of my hear whom you'll always occupy. Yes, there will always be a part of me who will always miss you. But your a part of my PAST now. Someone who will always be a part of my life but not of my FUTURE anymore.

I wish for nothing but your happiness. I am wshing you well. Now, without hesitancy and grudge, I can finally say, "WERE FRIENDS."

I never thought I'd really say this.. But I'm going to say this now..

"THANK YOU FOR LETTING ME GO."