Letters of the Heart <3

The Mistress <3

To my Husband’s Lover,

                Are you surprise that you’ll be able to read this letter? Well I’m sure you are. Because for all I know, you’re thinking that I’m oblivious to the fact that you’re having an affair with my husband.

                Why did I write this letter? I’ve got 3 reasons..

                First, I want you to know that this is not a hate letter, though it may sound that way. I want you to know that I am not mad at you. In fact, I even pity you. For my husband to be able to like you, it means that you’re something. For a great girl like you, you don’t deserve to be my husband’s “just in case girl”. You don’t deserve to be dated in a secluded place, you don’t deserve to wait for how many days just for him to text or call you. Hindi mo kailangang magtiyaga ng ilang oras para lang sa paghihintay sa kanya. You don’t deserve to feel guilty and afraid of being caught instead of being happy and excited when you’re out on dates. You don’t deserve to be second’s best. Don’t let yourself be the option. Find someone who will treat you as their choice. Are you following me?

                Second, don’t think that I don’t know every time he sneaks through the night just to call you or answer your call. Don’t think that I can’t smell your perfume that lingers in his shirt. Don’t think that I didn’t know that his business trips alibis is just to be with you. I am not that clueless, you know. Do you know how much my heart breaks every time he whispers your name in his sleep? Do you know how much it aches that I can feel millions of needles pricking my heart very time he says he can’t go home because he’ll be working really late? Do you know how it hurts to say that you’re okay, even though you’re not? Do you know how hard it is to kiss him on the lips knowing that your lips had just touched his, to wash his clothes with your lipstick smear, to fake a smile knowing that he also have you in his life? Do you know how I wanna cry, every time his children ask their father’s whereabouts?

                I will not ask you on how did it happened, to whom fault it is, and why did you do it, because your answer will be same as to why I am still here with him-that is LOVE. And I will not question that reason; because I’m also a woman in-love. But if you are thinking that he will leave me, his children-his family, for you, sorry to burst your bubble, but he will not. We’ve been through these situations a lot before. And everytime this happens, he still chooses us. Pagbali-baligtarin mo man ang mundo, kahit saan mang pelikula, nobela, istorya o ano pa man, pipiliin at pipiliin niya pa rin ang pamilya niya. This may sound harsh, but it’s the truth.

                Lastly, please, have mercy in yourself. You’re a girl; you deserve to be treated well, and loved truly and endlessly. I know forgetting him will never be that easy. I know that you have tried, but you have failed to do such thing. But for the love of God, please do it not only for yourself but also for the ones who love you. Ako ang nauna. Ako ang legal. Ako ang may dala ng pangalan niya. Ako ang ina ng mga anak niya. Ako ang Mrs. At kahit anong gawin mo, hinding-hindi mo nay un mababago.

Please think of everything that I have said. I will not insult you, I will not call you names, I will not hurt you, because just for you to know, I understand you. Mahirap man, pero pilit kitang inintindi, iniintindi, at iintindihin. I’ll be praying for you.

                                                                                                                                Respectfully yours,

                                                                                                                                Your Lover’s Wife