Never will I Forget

▶ Chapter 5

I can't sleep. Many thoughts running through my mind.

Bakit pa kaya sya bumalik?

Bumalik?Is that an appropriate word?

He didn't come back. Talagang nagpunta sya don para mag work nothing else.

It's just pure coincidence. Don't overthink.

But. i don't know. It's been two years since we last saw each other.

I was devastated when he left me. Sya nalang kasi yung meron ako noon.

He was my first love. We've been together for 5 years.

At natapos ang lahat ng yon sa text message lang.

I remembered that time.

That was one of the fvckiest day of my life. That time nalaman ko yung sis ko which is ahead sa akin ng 1 year is aalis na.

Magmigrate na sya kung nasaan yung parents namin. Dalawa lang kami since then.

I was so sad that time and i was dependent on them.

I don't even know how to cook. All in all.

She was with me everytime.

That day, umalis din yung sis ko.

I was crying the whole day. I don't know what will i do.

I was waiting for him.

Pero wala, i received a text from him na break na raw kami.

Yun lang i was waiting parin baka sakaling nagbibiro lang sya pero hindi. Hindi ko na rin sya nakita after non.

I was wrecked. Really really wrecked.

I don't know what to do.

Umiiyak lang ako sa gabi.

Takot ako sa lahat.

One year akong ganon. Marami akong natutunan.

Palagi akong lasing non kasi ang nasa isip ko is mawawala ng panandalian yung problema ko.

Hanggang sa naging part na ng buhay ko.

Though i was a drinker. I can handle my self. I don't flirt with anyone. I hate that.

Though i'm always at the club hindi ako nag try mag entertain ng kung sino.

I was there because of my friends not for anyone else.

But one thing na magandang naidulot ng lahat.

I learned how to become independent.

Di na ako takot sa lahat.

Pero nung nakita ko sya kanina parang may sakit parin sa nararamdaman ko.

Maybe because we don't have closure.

Nung tinignan ko sya, may kaba akong naramdaman.

Mas naging manly yung built ng katawan nya ngayon. Mas nag matured rin syang tignan pero ang ugali nya ganon parin.

Suplado.

Okay i should stop thinking about him right now.

Diko namalayan nakatulog na pala ako.

Umaga na ng magising. I looked at my watch. Hindi pa naman ako malelate.

Maaga aga akong pumasok. I am 1 hour early.

Wala pang mga tao non kaya nagdecide ako na matulog muna sa desk ko sa gilid.

Nagising nalang ako ng may kumakalabit sakin.Tinignan ko yung relo ko maaga pa naman ng 30 minutes.