Songs at sunset

Dreams

BACK 2 REALITY

Me;- I'm not going to keep fighting with you mother
Mum;- you don't need to
Me;- I'm going through enough as it is and I can't deal with more on my plate

I closed the door and looked up to the ceiling hoping I could find some type of release. I was used to watching walls.
It was normal for me.
I slowly drifted into sleep.

Waking up about 45 minuets to an hour later I felt guilt choke me.
Was I insensitive?
I mean Andrew couldn't have meant
What he had said.
I literally felt as though I was losing everything once again.

A knock came at the door.
I ignored it.
Another followed.

Me;-what
Voice;- fix your attitude it's me
Me;- I'm sorry Jay come in
Jay;- where you been?
Me;- went to see Amos
Jay;- you went to see if Andrew had moved on
Me;- and so what if I did ?

Jay sat beside me in my bed and looked at the ground and then sternly at me. He hesitated a while but finally spoke

Jay ;- you have to let go of baggage
Me ;- I am the baggage
Jay ;- no. The baggage is your insecurities telling you what may be false. If he has moved on don't stand in his way because real love takes sacrifice
Me;- and me doing time wasn't sacrifice?
Jay;- you gotta learn to listen little girl it's Not the same out here anymore , you didn't do anyone a favour going away.
Me:- so what was I
Jay;- a FXCKING LIABILITY HANNAH , YOU WERE A LIABILITY

we punched my wardrobe and kicked my table stand , leaving a gaping hole in the wardrobe and knocking over the table stand before storming out and slamming the door.

I as stubborn as I was realised that , I had messed up , big time.

I woke up suddenly
It was ALL A DREAM.
Prison. Roger . My mum.
I looked at the time on my alarm clock 5.37am.