Marriage Contract

True Love

"Will you marry me?"

"... Huh?"

What..? Ryou, what did you just say...?

"I never asked you last time, I just said 'lets get married, that wasnt a marriage proposal."

"Ryou... W-Why.. Are you."

"I thought that I should properly ask you. I want you to be with me from now on.... I... Love you." I was speechless hearing those words, it unexpectedly took my breathe away.

"But, why?"

"Since we married, you always worried about me, even though I threatened you to make you marry me... You worry for me and smile for me.. Before I knew it, I realized that I dont ever want anybody else to have you."

"You...... never.......even mentioned." My happy tone of voice begins to fade. "I couldnt bring it up, because we married the way we did. I pretend not to notice the way I felt... B-but... When I imagine seeing you and Adrian together... I get so agitated... I get jealous... And Im not proud of it." He blushed bashfully, confessing how he felt.
"No... No..." I said, with a tone of shocked.

"Not to mention, I didnt give you a ring or a chance to wear a weddinh dress either... But, I will make you the happiest woman alive... So, it might not mean much to you, however... If you still love me... Give me another chance to ask you to marry me."

"I.. Uh... Ryou!" I suddenly slipped my body, forgetting everything, I hugged Ryou. "Oh no... You are so cute." Ryou blushed. "Hmm?" As I looked at Ryou, he suddenly hugged me back tight... "I wont let you go." As I thought of deeper things, Krissy went up to my mind. "But what about Krissy? I thought you still have feelings for her." I looked at Ryou, sad. "Do you remember when I tried to say something before you fell down the stairs? When I got a call from Krissy at the hotel that day... I went there to end our relationship."

"What...?!"

"I thought we would do it over the phone, because we feel terrible seeing each other, but she cried... I went there to finally end it. I talked with her at the hotel... After that, I didnt see her, after Junta called me to come to his bar that day."

"Hmmm.." I couldnt say anything more, Ryou puts his hands on my shoulders and smiled gently. "When I was with Krissy... I couldnt forget about being 'a star'. Even so, I liked her.... And thought everything would be fine... But, I noticed that Im always myself when Im with you, and I realized what I had with Krissy isnt what love is about."

"What do you mean...?"

"You told me at the beginning, we should marry the one we really love... I thought I loved her... But how could that be true if I couldnt show her what I really was. Then I knew I wanted you to marry someone you really love... Because you taught me that."

"When we talked about breaking up in the office... You told me, 'we should marry someone we really love'." He wasnt talking like himself, he said for my sake. "I told you earlier, I had finished a recording, I wrote a lyrics for that song, I wrote them just for you, so I want you to to listen to it." He said soothingly, "Y-yes... I will... Definitely listen to it." I said in a nervous tone, he took his hand off my shoulder, and stroke my hair gently, burying my face to his chest, I quietly asked him,  "... Jatsuki left, didnt he?..."

"He took the hint, and went to his friend's place."

"Did he know what you wanted to say to me here?"

"Yes, I told him beforehand that I was going to ask you to marry me again." I looked up and smiled at Ryou, he intently gazed back at me, then kissed me slowly.

Little by little... The strength of our feelings for one another returned... To the way it was between us before.

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When I woke uo in the next morning, I found Ryou sleeping beside with me with an innocent look on his face... Oh thats right, I slept with him last night. I felt we had become closer to each other, more so than at any time in the past, it was a wonderful moment... Where I felt like our feelings were converging, however... I cant continue our married life like this, as long as Im with Ryou, the media might find out about us somebody, I cant take that risk, I know its not only we that needs Ryou... He has fans all over Japan.

I slipped quietly of bed without waking him up, and started to get ready. Dressed, I stealthily carried a few boxes I had prepared to the entrance.

Finally, I came back to tge living room, and an envelope on the table...

"Goodbye... Ryou..." I said quietly to him, as he slept at the bedroom, I held back the tears welling down my eyes... And shaking off the emotion. I left the condo.

"What should I do now...?" Initially, the plan was to go to Adrian's place after this. "I already cancelled the lease to my former apartment... And I quit my job too... I love Adrian, so I want you to divorce me. Adrian agreed to back up this lie." However, I dont feel like going to his place, even though I asked him for his help, and knew I was being selfish. "Maybe I should go to my family's place. Ryou doesnt know where they live, so he shouldnt be able to find me.

At that moment, I heard a familiar voice, and stopped instantly.... Ryou..?

It was Ryou's new song playing out from of nowhere, he just finished recording it, and it wasnt supposed to be released yet... It seemed that the chorus of the song has been released for promo.

"Even if the world turns its back, I will be happy if your with me, thats all I have to keep going, you are not alone, and Im not alone either, cause' we complete each other..."

Ryou...

That song was for me, a message from Ryou to me, I found myself spontaneously walking back along the way I had come.

Am I... Really okay being with Ryou..?

Even if it might endanger his career, if our story behind our marriage ever came out... If he had me with him... He could do it all over again... He could get his career back- I felt that his determination to reach even higher was revealed to me through that song.

I want to go home... To Ryou.

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